lost and found

6.

During one of the longest day of my life, literary, i was walking after the pack dinner with Disa next to me. We where talking and laughing on or way to my cabin. a weary chill runs past me, setting my nerves on edge. Again i looked around and saw nothing out of the ordinary. Thinking to myself i was seeing ghosts. De last couple of nights the nightmare intensified. I blamed it on the move and my first time living solo. But tonight as i come in front off my door, i notice it's open. Even Disa pulsated with nerves. " Don't go in" she pleaded. you could taste the danger lingering in the distance. With no moment to spear Disa runes to the pack house. I watch her go. I take a deep breath, trying to sniff out who or what that entered my home away from home. The sent that was sugary sweet, like candy floss, thats been burned a little, it turned my stomach in a flip. Nauseous takes the upperhand. i walked in the office of the cabin. My documents and books are spread all over the room. there go's my work. That going to take some time to put it back to order. hoping nothing of importance was gone. in the distance i heard the voices of Heidi and Larkin coming closer to the cabin. It gave me the courage to inspect the rest of the rooms. I Entered my bedroom. A loud scream left my mouth. Without any word more, Larkin and Heidi burst into the room. There one my bed lays a head of a dear and a note I'M COMMING FOR YOU NOWHERE TO HIDE. Larkin mind linkt the border control asking them of a intruder, Heide asked here warriors if they seen nothing out of the ordinary. Even Alpha Lars and Luna Katrina passed by, they begged me to come back to the pack house. But i was stronger than months ago, i will not go back to hide like a scared litle pup. How fearful i was, i was in no mood to be a helpless omega for the rest of my time on earth. I had training, i could defend myself, i could handle every weapon they gave me. Stella still didn't come out to show herself. I didn't blame her, our wolfs are always more damaged after betrayal, than our human form. But when our human and wolf are out of balance, you only really can relay on youre human form. I was lucky that Heidi trained me in close combat as wel.

When my heart rade went down again, i looked at the mess. sighing, wondering what i did or did i defended somebody? I'm half way around the world from home, except of the people of this pack i haven't seen anybody. No strangers had past my path, and communications with this pack was at the bear minimum. I couldn't rap my mind around the feelings i had now , and the intrusion of my privacy. The air buzzed with a bad kind of energy. It was putting my brain in overdrive. I felt my self moving towards panics attack's. Not now i said to myself. If i panic now, i will run back to the pack house. And thats not an option, i didn't want to put the Alpha and Luna with there pack in danger. I hade to fixed it on my own. This pack and the people in it are precious. They opend there home for me. i would not repay them with pain. I'm going to solve it on my own. My decision was made. Even when fear lashed over me, ik made a action plan. No body wil come close to the hurt my second family. i will go down fighting for the love that lives here, if needed i will put my life one the line. The need to protect is bigger than my need to survive. If someone wants to bring a fight to me, wil be punished. I felt a shock fighting spirit and anger fill my body to the top. I embraced that new feeling. It's something different that the muted sense i had the past couple of months. It felt like i put my fingers in the wall outlet. Electrified to go head on in the battle the stangers had put on me.

Days past, and nothing strangely happend. i was beginning to think that someone played a sick joke one me. I filled my days with the stuff i hade to do, training and such, working on a draft of new law for the council , some of there rules are from Ancient Greece. Old rules that not make any sense in this time of age. I loved making a difrence for the better.
Today i was one my own, i went for a run, not one ease, i runned trough the forrest like if been chased by something unknown . Luna Katrina and Heidi had pack stuff to arrange. And Disa was on cleaning duty. they had said that one or other Alpha was visiting. I'm not sure, when they talked to me to inform me, i hadn't payed any attention. My thinking was occupied that day by the dead squirl that was pinned on my cabin door that morning after meditation. So there message didn't really sinck in. I've been finding al kinds of lugubrious presents al over my normal roads on pack ground. I hadn't tell the luna, Heidi or Larkin. i needed to find a solution on my own. Or i will be seen for the rest of my life as the poor little omega. I did'nt want people to remind my als helpless and weak, when the Moon Goddess summons me to join here there in the sky. I became more determined to make something out of life. I had put down the hope of endless happiness. I would probably never have a infinity of bless. But i could put my best foot in front of my career. That had to be enough to go trough the rest of my life. it just had to be. after stretching i walked on to the meditation meadow. looking over al the flowers and weeds i couldn't relax. Is saw some monkshood, and pick some of them with root and all. If someone is fucking with my mind, i would fuck them right back. Nobody wil put this omega down.