I have so much to give
So much to invest
Yet, despite all my actions, whatever I do
I'm always second best
My 'father' left when I was six
After hurting me
I only came first when he wanted the worst
He was never what a father should be
My mother says she loves me
More than anything there is
Forgetting to add: "Except when there's a man"
(Which there always is)
Forever prioritising what's his
My first kiss was no Fairytale
No fireworks and a cruel flash of reality
His girlfriend couldn't see him that day
He was a twat and he used me
My first relationship was an utter disaster
Two years of manipulation
Immature, childish, selfish boy
Ending in betrayed vexation
Then you came along
And with nothing to prolong
I took a chance, finally felt like I belong
Thought our connection was so strong
And would last beyond lifelong
I can't believe how much I was wrong
Four months ... so little and so much
Committed all my energy
I've never been so happy
Under your intense and gentle touch
Your decision sliced through me like a lightning bolt
Oh, you stupid, stupid fucking sod
Because of a stupid promise to a god
After sixty years you planned to leave me
For a Hindu monastery
Disregarding all promises you ever made to me
I have so much to give
Everything to invest
Yet, despite all my actions, whatever I do
I'm always second best
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Tales of Bygone Lovers
ПоэзияThis is the collection of poems and song lyrics I wrote during and after my first three relationships and one of my crushes. Although some of them will be soppy, all of them were written to help me express my feelings at the time. One of the only go...
