21 Questions (Ryden)

Question 11 - R

A/N:

Just a warning, this could potentially be triggering to some. Just wanted to give a heads up.

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Ryan: do you have any scars?

Brendon: yeah a lot actually

Ryan: where at?

Brendon: got one on my eyebrow my chest quite a few on my thighs and legs

Ryan: Bren...

Brendon: yeah?

Ryan: you don't...

Brendon: don't what?

Ryan: you know you don't... cut do you?

Brendon: you're asking if I hurt myself

Ryan: please tell me you don't because you don't deserve to do that

Brendon: believe me I don't need to self harm

Ryan: what do you mean?

Brendon: I was hurt enough before to satisfy any want I would've had to hurt myself

Ryan: so where did the scars come from

Brendon: name a situation it probably happened

Brendon: had cigarettes put out on me, got my arm broken from misbehaving have a scar for that, random punishments that left little reminders all over my body

Brendon: got a cut so deep down the side of my leg it needed stitches got that from trying to jump a fence after trying to run away from foster care

Brendon: there are those regular bumps and brusies scars that everyone gets so it isn't all traumatic

Ryan: that still a lot Bren

Brendon: at least I can say they weren't caused by me intentionally I don't support the whole self harm thing there is enough evil in this world believe me I've seen it you shouldn't be adding yourself to the list of things that can hurt you

Brendon: people need to love and accept themselves I hate the thought of self harm as a way to cope

Ryan: Bren I'm sorry all that happened to you I wish I could change what happened

Brendon: don't do that

Ryan: do what?

Brendon: I don't want you to treat me differently or look at me differently because you know this stuff about me I'm still me I haven't changed I don't want pity

Ryan: I wasn't trying to I was just saying

Brendon: you don't have to that's in the past it sucks I have to wear reminders of it but I don't think about it I'm better now so don't try to be cautious around me there's no need for that

Ryan: alright B

Brendon: thank you