Estupído But True.[c]

Bab 48

Bunyi pintu bilik dibuka dengan perlahan. Sebenarnya tak sedar tapi bila mama jerit je "Mariéne Estefanía, what are you doing in this room?" Tanya mama mula panik tapi cuba untuk bertenang. Cara mama bernafas pun, nampak sangat dia try hard nak kawal perasaan marah, perasaan terkejut dia dalam masa yang sama.

Aku mengeluh masih menutup mata. Bila aku teringat hal semalam, aku berpaling ke sebelah dan terlihat Marquez sedang tidur dengan aman. Haih, apa lagi aku buat ni? Asal aku tidur dengan dia pulak ni?

" Marie! You can't be doing this! "Marah mama. Aku hanya berdiam diri dan membuat muka selamba." do what ? " tanya aku .

"Im in love with him. And you know that." Kata aku. Saja je nak bagi mak aku lagi panik. Siapa suruh tak nak bagitahu aku awal-awal. Aku sengaja mengusap kepala Marquez yang sedang tido kat sebelah aku.

"Oh my god! No... no... Mariéne, please. Don't do this." Rayu mama dah tak dapat berkata-kata sambil memeluk tubuhnya. Dia mula rasa messed up, aku tahu. Marquez akhirnya terjaga. Mama segera merenungnya dengan tajam sambil menolak pinggang .

" ¡Márquez Estefan, ¡Deberías saberlo ya! " [ Marquez estefan, You should know that already! ]marah mama sambil mengecilkan suaranya. I get it. Dia tak nak ahli keluarga yang lain dengar.

Aku tertawa senget sambil berpaling ke arah Marquez yang masih dalam kebingungan. "Sike!" bisik aku. Dia tersengih.

"what about Guillermo, Marie?" Tanya mama . What the heck? Dari ke semalam hingga ke harini, orang asyik ingat aku dan Guillermo tu suami isteri nok, Really ? Mak sendiri pun tanya ? Memang nak kena lah orang-orang kat sini ne.

"Hm. What about him? " tanya aku .
"should I be sleeping with him right now?" sindir aku .

"That's better. " balas mama dengan sindiran balik. Aku terbisu. "Marie boleh tak jangan tunjukkan perangai degil tu kat sini? "Tegur mama dengan tegas.

"What's the point? You told me to sleep with Guillermo, but he's not my husband—not even my boyfriend. Rasa macam kena jual pun ada jugak hm." Sindir aku dengan selamba.

"What are you talking about? Mariéne, marquez is your brother! Of course all of this perlu berhenti!"Marah mama. Akhirnya terkeluar . Itu je yang dia patut bagitahu aku selepas dia tahu. Itu je yang aku nak dengar. Semua pun nak sorokkan daripada aku. Buat apa?

"How do you feel? After 23 years of hiding things from me, you finally let it all out. "Balas aku.

"You should have at least told me that I have a brother. All these years, you made me feel like I was an only child. Mama, I just can’t understand you."

"Ma, anak orang lain dalam kandungan dah gugur pun, diaorang bagitahu anak diaorang yang lain "korang ada abang tapi abang gugur dalam kandungan,mak". Tapi mama? Yang hidup pun mama tak cakap apa-apa pasal anak mama."

"It's fine ma, I know, mama baru je tahu yang 'Lucas' tu yang jalan dengan Marie hari-hari kat Malaysia tu anak mama sendiri, takpe. Tapi takkan lah mama tak tahu mama lahir dua anak kan masa mama lahirkan Marie? Kenapa nak kena secret. Fine, kalau ada pergaduhan dulu dengan keluarga sini... In my point of views, kalau ye pun mama tak dapat nak besar kan Marquez. Just tell me ma, dari kecik, "Marie, ada kembar, tapi kembar tinggal tempat lain." semua orang akan cakap macam tu dengan anak diaorang." Kata aku panjang lebar.

"Dan asal lak mama suruh Marie tidur dengan Guillermo? Bukan haram ke? Marquez kembar Marie sendiri, halal kot."

" because I know you're in love with him." Mama mula berhadapan dengan aku . Aku mengangguk. "Yes, you are. You should know that. So can't you see how much pain I'm in? Just because of this..." Tanya aku .

Mama membisu lama.

"It's my fault. I've never spoken up about this." Air mata mama mengalir ke pipi.

"You can't just ignore this. We need to talk. You can't drop hints and expect me to understand. Speak to me directly. If it weren't for Guillermo, I wouldn't even be here. I could still be in Malaysia, clueless and lost because I had no idea what was happening. You're my mother. You should know what to do. You raised me. And yesterday, when I arrived, you acted as if nothing had happened. You know that Marquez and I were a thing before. You know I love him... you know I'm hurting inside after finding out he's my twin. Yet, you still had the nerve to smile like nothing happened to me! You know the moment I saw you yesterday, I was at my lowest, ma Don't you understand how much I'm suffering? All I needed was a hug because you're the only one who truly understands what I've been through. I never imagined you would do that to me yesterday. You seemed happy, and you don't even talk to me about it."

"I'm really sorry, baby. I wanted to be there for you because I know it's a lot to take in all at once. I'm kind of lost too, not sure how to talk to you about all of this. I know it's hurting you, and I've been struggling to find the right time to explain everything."terangnya air matanya masih mengalir.

"tak ada masa yang tak sesuai ma, semuanya bergantung kepada orang yang nak bagitahu
, sama ada dia dah bersedia atau tak ."Balas aku.

Mama mengeluh. "I feel like I've let you down as a mom... "

"The letter that Marta gave you was from my mother. It was an apology letter. All of this chaos happened because of her. It was her idea to separate one of my children from me. Who would ever want their child to be taken away? It's our fate, but she's the one to blame. The only way to maintain the bond between our families was to have one of our children marry into the other family, The Orlene family, so the property could be shared equally. I never had a good relationship with my mother, especially after I married your father, a Malaysian... a Muslim man. She practically disowned me, treating me like I wasn't her child. So, she decided that Marta's child would marry into the Orlene family. However, it turned out that Marta couldn't have kids, so my mother took my child without my consent. She kept me away from Marquez and I couldn't even see my own child. Spain was just too toxic for me, your father decided that we moved to Malaysia to heal mentally. Finally, my mother realized how cruel she had been and that she couldn't undo everything. So she wrote that letter."

Marquez mengeluarkan surat tersebut. Rupanya dia pun dapat jugak. " c-can I? " tanya mama sambil menangis. Dia pun membaca surat itu dan mula menangis teresak-esak .

[Hey there, sweetheart. I've been struggling to find the right words, but I need to get this message to you. I owe you a massive apology for my actions. It was all my idea from the start. I was desperate and made some really bad choices. I didn't think about anyone else, not even my daughters. I want you to understand that hurting you was never my intention. I'm truly sorry for being so selfish and causing you so much pain.]

Marquez memeluk mama manakala aku hanya terbisu. " I ran away cause I hate her . Mama tak pernah jenguk dia sekali pun lepas tu . Masa hari funeral , mama datang tapi kejap je. " katanya .

Kalau memang diantara kitaorang berdua je yang dipilih, pertunangan Marquez dan adik Guillermo dah cancelled . Habis tu sekarang aku dan Guillermo ?

"jadi maksudnya... "aku tak mahu habiskan ayat aku . Aku nak tahu kepastian tu. Tapi aku lupa pulak sorang ni boleh baca minda. Kan dah lama tak jumpa. "Mariéne, kau jadi pengganti aku. Diaorang dah plan. Kau yang akan tunang dengan Guillermo." Ujar Marquez sambil mengusap kepala aku .

Dari cara dia pandang aku, nampak sangat betapa sakitnya hati dia. Sama dengan aku, kami tak move on lagi. Tapi yang salah, tetap salah. Kitaorang adik beradik.

"selama ni, aku terpisah dengan kau hanya sia-sia. Sebab kesilapan dengan Ken, aku lari dari pertunangan aku dan lari ke Malaysia. So plan diaorang tak jad. Jadi kau lah satu-satunya harapan diaorang. "Tambah Marquez . Aku tahu dia akan mengaku kesilapan besar dia tu.

Aku mengangguk perlahan sebab aku dah faham.

Aku mula mendekati Marquez dan mama dan memeluk mereka. We are family. "im sorry. "ucap aku. Untuk segala-galanya nak mohon maaf. Kita akan mula kehidupan baru.

"I'm sorry too. I love the both of you. "Ucap mama sambil memeluk kami dengan erat.

kami pun makan sambil berborak-borak dengan gembira.

Tbc.