Hell Above (Sequel To Heaven Below)

Chp14~I Can't Do This Anymore...

Right, this took me so long to write even though it is a short ass chapter but the next chapter will be a little happier. This chapter made me really sad .-.

SAULI
Tears run down my cheek as I hide behind a house.
I shot Adam and Tommy...I killed Zoe and Issac...Do I regret any of it? No. I do regret shooting Adam. He was everything that I needed and I had to go fuck it up. Not Tommy, Zoe nor even Issac.

But I snapped. Tommy stole Adam away from me. He thought I didn't mind whenever he kissed Tommy on stage. But I did! I did fucking care.
They're after me. The police. They found me...

I run my hands through my hair as tears fall down my cheek again, I could feel the eyeliner going down my face. This is all all of my fault..I have no one else to blame but myself. I can now see the flashlights, people are yelling and sirens are in the distance. I cry as I press the gun to my forehead. I stand up, keeping the gun to my head. They stop, aiming their guns at me.

"Put the gun down, sir!" One yells. My bottom lip trembles. The other calls for back up as I cock my gun. "You don't want to do this!" The same cop shouted.

What does a stranger know what I want? I want everything to go back to normal but I can't all of that back...Will heaven forgive me? Am I too evil for hell? What if there is no in between...I pull the small envelope from my back pocket and held it tightly...Adam, please forgive me..

"Tell Adam I love him." I speak as I pull the trigger, their screams were the last things I heard.

ADAM
I open my eyes and saw that I was still in the small padded room they have locked me in...it has only been a few hours... I hear the door unlock and a police officer walk in, I stay in my corner like a child cowering away from their parents.

"Mr Lambert?" The man spoke softly as he knealt down..Did something bad happen? His voice makes me worry..Did Tommy do something? He passed me a small envelope. "Sauli shot himself earlier today..we found this in his hand..I am sorry for your loss." He spoke, leaving the room.

I stared at the small piece of paper in my hand, I slowly opened it with shaky hands,
'Dear Adam,
I am so sorry for what I have done, I know that what I have done will never reach your forgiveness. I wish everything could go back to normal. The only thing I do regret is shooting you, I hate myself for that. I hope you're OK...They're looking for me, they know where I am...Adam Mitchel Lambert I love you so much and you were the only thing that kept me going but then you fell in love with Tommy...
I am so sorry for what I am about to do... I love you...'

TOMMY
I hear Adam's blood curdling screams come from his room. They make me want to go into that room and just hold him but they won't allow me to go in there, they think he'll harm me. But Adam isn't crazy...He's not and I know it...He is just tramuatised, nothing therapy won't fix.

"Neil! He is your brother!" I yell harshly at Neil who was staring at Adam's room where the screaming is still going on.

"It is for his own good" Neil speaks, looking down.

"Please" I heard Adam scream. "Make them stop!"

"Tell me that isn't crazy!" Neil speaks with hurt in his voice.

"He needs his family! He needs everything but a fucking padded room and straight jacket!!!"

"Tommy, please" Neil sighs. I have had it.. I go straight to Adam's room, opening it.

I see him cowering away in the corner.. I shut the door behind me, signaling the men that I need time alone.

"Adam?" I ask quietly. His head slowly turns, his arms were covered in scratch marks.

"I'm not crazy, TJ" Was all he said slowly.

"I know baby" I cry.

"Then tell me how this happened? What I did wrong? Tell me, why?"

"You didn't do anything wrong, Adam"

"Then why do this to me? Why!?" He shouts. I stand back. "Please don't leave me Tommy. Can't we go home and forget this dreadful night? Please don't turn your back on me.." He cries as I exit the room, his screams of my name fill the corrdiors, I turn my head once to see doctors having to restrain him...

As I walk into the house, the band are already there, waiting. I quickly wipe my tears but know it is no use.

"Tommy where the fuck have you been?" Hayley asks with angression.

"Doesn't matter" I say quietly.

"Doesn't matter? Doesn't fucking matter? WHY THE FUCK IS ADAM IN A LOONEY BIN?" Monte Shouts.

"Neil thinks he is crazy! This is all Neil and Eber's doing so don't you fucking blame this on me." I yell back, bitterness in my words and tears down my cheek. "He is losing his mind, he is severly depressed and so close to the edge."

"Then we fucking help him" Hayley speaks up.

"Help?' I question...Is there helping him? "He is beyond help!"

"You think he needs to be there? You think he fucking belongs there? You're his boy friend not his enemy." Isaac speaks.

"Sauli was his boy friend and enemy." I say quietly.

"What is that supposed to mean?" Hayley asks quietly.

"HE IS STILL IN LOVE WITH SAULI" I scream. I stand back and walk backwards. "I can't do it anymore" I whisper as I leave the room...