[Shadowhunter] Preferences

#53 Secret you hide from him/her

Raphael

You always play strong and everything far from vulnerable, but actually you oftentimes just feel insecure about everything and everyone. You have the feeling that you don't fit into the clan and you might bring Raphael in danger because of your love. It causes restless nights and terrible thoughts, but you would never dare to tell Raphael. He shall know you as the strong and powerful warlock you are. Not some vulnerable and hurt girl/boy.

Alec

When you started dating him for the first time, you had developed some feelings towards Raphael. They went away the more time you spent with Alec, but you still feel really guilty about it to this day, and you can't bring yourself to tell him for fear of hurting him.

Jace

When you first met Jace, you really hated him. He was rude and you hoped that a demon might attack him on a mission, so you could get his big room under the tower. But well, soon he turned out to be a good guy and you shook the thought off.

Meliorn

Once you thought about leaving him, because the Seelie Queen threatened you to kill Simon, if you stay with Meliorn. Because you love your brother Simon so much, you wanted to give into the deal but in the end your love to Meliorn was stronger and the Seelie Queen accepted your relationship. The thought about leaving him makes you feel guilty to this day. He never found out and you hope that he never will.

Isabelle

While you were drunk you accidently made out with another brunette who looked a bit like Isabelle in the dark light. Worst of all: Jace saw it. To this day you are afraid that Jace might spill the tea and tell her. It was a drunk mistake, but you felt really guilty.

Maia

Next to Maia you seem very insecure and little. She is sassy, strong and has a very unique personality. The downworld listens to her word and you know that one day she'll be a strong leader, while you'll stay a little vampire behind Raphael. Sometimes a hit of jealousy swings with it.

Magnus

Magnus is immortal and the thought of you growing old while he is staying his age, makes you very uncomfortable. He will need to let you go one day and that makes you sad. You already talked to the leader of the vampire clan and asked him to make you a vampire. He didn't give in and told you, that Magnus would never forgive him. Now you are searching for another vampire to do it. You want to spend enternity with Magnus.

Will

Him going on missions scares you. You never sleep, thinking that each time is the time that Jem is going to come and tell you that Will didn't make it back. You want to appear strong to him, and don't want him to worry about you whilst he is away on his missions, so you hide it.

Jem

The words that people say about you being weak get to you a lot. Jem always tells you that he likes how you ignore the haters, and are so strong that their words don't hurt you, so you cry in private, not letting him know how you really feel.

Jordan

During your first transformation, you killed your little sister after you lost control. You feel so much guilt everyday because of it, and you cant stand the idea of Jordan looking at you like you are a killer, so you keep it a secret from him

Tessa

You sneak out every month to go and visit your parent's graves. You feel bad, because you know that you are going behind Tessa's back, but she would never approve of it, so you sneak out quietly when you know that she is asleep.