Fake • Zach Herron

S E V E N T E E N

Jessica's POV

ive been in bed all day. mostly crying, but sometimes I was thinking, and other times I was eating the ice cream that the twins brought over, I guess I really liked him, I mean im taking this way worse than expected. I rubbed my face and stood up. my room was so messy and I needed to clean up, but I should probably sort myself out first. before anything though I locked my door, so my nana or Cooper dont walk in. but of course there was a knock the second I walked away. so I unlocked it again and swung it open to come face to face with cooper
"what?" I snapped at him
"I um brought you dinner. Nana said you should eat" he said showing me the plate
"I dont want dinner, im not hungry" I shrugged
"please, dont starve yourself jess" he sighed
"im not, ive been eating ice cream all fucking day" I said, opening my door a little more so he could see the 20 tubs of ice cream on my floor
"fuck.. that's a lot of ice cream"
"yeah now fuck off. I need to clean myself up, and then my room" I said and began to shut the door, but he put his foot to stop it
"can I ask you something?"
"quick"
"who made you like this? who hurt you" he asked "was it Zach?"
"its none of your fucking business man" I said shoving him
"it is my business!"
"oh, and how is that?"
"your my sister. and I really hate seeing you like this. even if I hate you sometimes" he chuckled a bit
I sighed "yes. it was Zach"
"what really?"
I nodded "dont tell nana"
"jess, she thinks your being bullied - you.. or me need to tell her or she will call the principle"
"fine, I will, but not now" I said. he nodded and then walked back to the kitchen. I shut the door and locked it again. I then went to my cupboard and grabbed a trash bag, I threw it on the floor so I could go throw my hair up into a messy bun, I cleaned the mascara from my eyes and then started to clean up. Im definitely going to be needing a run after all this, but atleast I didn't eat all 20 of them, the twins and Lola had two each, so it wasn't that bad?
I put some tissues and wrappers into the bag and put it outside of my door, knowing someone would take it out for me, as I was walking back into my room I heard the doorbell go. I walked to the corner and peaked to see who it was. and it was fucking him. Zach, what the hell is he doing here!

"hey Mrs Davis" Zach said, it was a good thing my nana didn't let him straight in as usual
"hello Zachery. what might you be doing here at this time?" she asked
"I came to check up on Jess" he said "is she home?"
"hold on, il go and check for you" she shot him a little smile, then walked towards me. I saw Zach step in, that was before cooper took my nanas place making him move back a bit. my nana saw my hair flow as I ran back to my room, she jogged up to me, and didn't hesitate to come in

"I dont wanna talk to him" I said, not looking at her
"why? did you get into a fight?"
"I guess? I mean he broke up with me so"
"In what way?"
what does she mean by that?
"its a long story - but I just dont want to talk to him" I said. she nodded and walked back to the kitchen. I followed and went back to my hidden spot so he couldn't see me.
my nana took coopers place, and cooper glared at him
"im sorry darling she isn't home" she said
Zach didn't believe her "please. I need to apologize" he pleaded her
"its not a good time. maybe come back another time yeah?" he sighed, and before anyone could say anything Cooper slammed the door in his face. I nodded slowly and went back to my room. I grabbed my phone and opened my group chat with my girls.

Me - Zach just showed up at my door...
Ann - what!!!!
Hall - what in seven shades of hell did he want?!
Lola - what did he say!
Me - he wanted to apologise, but my nana said it wasn't a good time. which she is right. I really dont want to talk to him
Hall - girl I dont blame you

before I could answer there was a knock on my widow, I ignored it, but there was another one. I got up and opened my curtains. I didn't see anything as I opened my window
"Zach" I said - he was standing there, staring at me
"jess" he let a breath out "can I come in"
"fuck off" I said and went to shut the window
"jess. come on!" he stopped me "tell me why your mad!"
"take a guess!"
"is it because I 'cheated' on you? or because I didn't let you brake up with me?"
"no Zach, its because - " he rested his hands on mine, and before I could stop him he was already in my room.
"why are you mad at me?" he asked. I couldn't tell him that I actually liked him. it would ruin everything. but I had to come up with an excuse.. and fast.
"y-you could do so much better" I said
he sighed "I thought you were mad at me! I thought I did something wrong. fuck" he pushed his hair back - stressed
"you did! you went fucking back!" I snapped "you could do so much better Zach"
"she makes me happy" he shrugged
"I thought she didn't make you happy.. I thought I did" he thought I was asleep after the party, but I wasn't. I heard everything. I felt him kiss my head, and I heard him say how I made him happy
"you do. but not like she does"
"get out" I completely changed tone
"what?" he asked
"if you are with that slut. I dont want to be near you. or talk to you"
"jess dont do this... dont push me away"
"brake up with here then"
"no, no jess I love her" my heart broke even more
"g-get out... and never, ever come back" I pushed him towards my window
"oh my god, you are overreacting! dont do this to me" he said
"dont date her"
"I know you are my best friend, but you cant tell me what the fuck to do!"
"im just looking out for you Zach - shes going to hurt you again, and again. I wont be here to fake date forever!"
"jess..." he tried to grab my hand, I could feel tears forming
"please... just get out" I whispered. I dont want to cry infront of him
"dont cry..."
I needed to say something... something that would make him leave
"you dont have to do this, and we can still be best friends"
I opened my eyes and felt tears run down my cheek
"I dont want to be friends" I completely lied. I did want to be friends, but I wanted to be more than that, I wanted to be his everything, I want to be the one he cares about. I want to be the one he loves. when I said this, I saw his eyes shift, he said nothing but turn and climb out the window....