What did I just do? Why do I have such a hard time letting people in? Why did I not trust anyone?
I growled in frustration as drive my way to the races. It was in the evening, the sun sinking lower under the horizon. That inky reminded me of last night, and I slam my hand angrily on the steering wheel. Everything reminded me of him.
I pulled into the parking lot where we had the races a few days ago. I pulled into a parking spot, and as I did, I noticed Aaron's Dodge parked a few spots down.
"Dang it," I mumbled to myself. I stepped out of the car, but, for some reason I wasn't in the mood for racing.
So I stayed back, away from the crowd, and decided to fix up my car, like I usually did. I opened the hood.
It wasn't long before someone noticed I was here.
"Can we talk?" Aaron asks. I breathe out in frustration, set down my wrench, and turn to him, cleaning off my grease stains hands on a rag. I flick my eyebrows up at him to tell him to go on.
My mind goes back to last night, when it was raining, and we kissed in his car. I was scared he was going to freak out now about how I left him after I told him I liked him. Was I making this too complicated? I felt guilty all of the sudden.
"Can we talk about yesterday?" He asks. I knew it. I take a deep breath.
"Look, Aaron, I'm sorry about that... I feel like I led you along, and it's all my fault. But, things are going on in my mind right now, and I can't keep them all apart, and I don't need a relationship to get in the way."
He keeps his gaze down at the pavement. I want him to look at me, for me to look into those blue eyes. But he keeps his eyes down.
"Luna, I can't help but feel like I did something wrong or..." He trails off. He looks up finally, and I immediately which he had kept his stare down. Those blue eyes only made me feel more sad, more guilty. I glance away.
"You didn't do anything wrong, Aaron. I'm just trying to keep too many secrets, trying to avoid getting in trouble with a lot of different people, and scared of my own emotions."
At the last part, Aaron looks over at me. I know I've let my guard down, and I hated doing that. He already knew my story, knew about why I do all this. But know he knows how I feel about him, why I'm making this so complicated.
"Your scared...?" He says kindly. His lips are curved in a small, caring smile, and I look away with a deep breath.
"Yes, I am. I'm scared of my feelings for you, okay?" I look over at him, but then quickly look away, "I'll admit it, I'm scared. The girl most people think is courageous and brave and tough is terrified of everything. I guess you could say my bravery is just a cover for what I really am." At the last part, my voice breaks, and it sounds like I'm about to break down into tears.
"Luna, I never meant for you to get hurt," he says. I look at him, shaking my head, I set down the wrench in the toolbox, open the passenger side door and set it in there, closing the door behind me.
"Last night was a mistake, Aaron. I'm sorry," I walk away before he can say something. I get into the driver's seat of my car, and slam the door shut. I glance over at Aaron, who sits on the hood of his car, his eyes closed. I shake my head and drive out of the parking lot.
YOU ARE READING
Street Racer
Teen FictionLuna Lake is a rebellious teenager. Her brother is a police officer, and she's constantly sheltered and cooped up, hidden from the world. At least, that's what her family thinks. Her rebellious streak shows often when her family isn't around. Mainly...