Unrepentant

9: Once you have a dream, you will not realize it in this life (3)

　　Seeing Gu Hong said: "Lin Size...I don't want to leave you completely. I just want to go and see the outside scenery by myself. Do you know what I mean? Maybe one day, I will find that I still can't do without you , Then naturally I will come back obediently. But that had to be my own  completely voluntary, not like you said, I made an appointment with you, how many days to come back every year... If I want to leave, not I will want to come back. If I decide to come back, I won't leave again."

　　Lin Size said, "But, you don't even know when you will be back."

　　Gu Hong saw it and said: "I don't know the return date, it's parting."

　　Lin Size could not say a word.

　　He wanted to keep her, of course he wanted to keep her, he was lost and recovered, like a blink of an eye.

　　But she had said so much, said affectionately, even pleading, he had destroyed too many her dreams, and he could not satisfy her wish even now.

　　So Lin Size could only close his eyes and said, "Ok...just if you have time, you must write to me."

　　Gu Hong smiled, tears in her eyes, and she was soon pressed down by herself, and said, "Yeah. Thank you."

　　Lin Size didn't speak, only closed his eyes, holding her hand, and then opened his eyes for a long time. The circles under his eyes were a little red. He said, "Let me draw a picture for you. It turns out that...I burned it. You. I should have seen it."

　　Gu Hong saw it and said, "Well, I saw it. Okay, you paint."

　　Lin Si Ze asked her to follow her to the study, and asked her to sit on the soft couch on the side as before, holding her chin in a bored but clever manner, looking at the direction he was sitting.

　　She used to watch him doing political affairs like this.

　　It turned out that he also saw it.

　　Gu Hongjian maintained this posture. After Lin Size finished painting, she leaned over to look at her vivid self, and praised his painting skills. Lin Size didn't answer, and only smiled reluctantly as a response. When Gu Hong saw that he urged him to write the inscription, Lin Size hesitated for a long time after picking up the pen.

　　Gu Hong didn't ask much when he saw it, only nodded.

　　When the matter spread out, the silence between the two increased a little more. Gu Hong had to say that he was tired and wanted to return to the palm of the house and hurriedly left, but unexpectedly ran into Zhao Yunyuan. At that time, she could actually avoid it. As long as she flew over the eaves or turned back to the study, she could avoid it, but she suddenly thought of Zhao Yunyuan's red eyes in the temple that day, and she stopped.

　　Zhao Yunyuan was shocked when he saw Gu Hong. When Gu Hong saw it, he quickly said about his situation in a few words. Zhao Yunyuan slowed down a little bit, and was pulled aside by Gu Hongjian to prevent Lin Size from suddenly coming out.

　　Zhao Yunyuan said: "Since Master Gu, you have already returned a month ago, why didn't you notify anyone?"

　　Gu Hong saw it and said, "Because I am about to leave."

　　Zhao Yunyuan was a little puzzled.

　　Seeing Gu Hong said: "Gu Hong is dead. Seeing Gu Hong, it's time to start a new life. The emperor and I have bothered too much, and I don't want to do this anymore."

　　Zhao Yunyuan was a little surprised, and said: "Really..."

　　Gu Hong saw this and said, "I am still alive. Apart from a few servants and the emperor in the palace, only Brother Zhao knows. I hope Brother Zhao will not tell anyone... But I still understand Brother Zhao's temperament. Although the friendship is not deep, I trust you very much."