BROOKE
I push the door to my room open and walk in, "Jonah?", I ask, "Jonah, where have you been? I was so worried. I- "
"I'm fine", he says flatly, "how are you?"
I collapse on the bed and the mattress bounces under me, "I'm okay", I say, "whose number is this? Where are you? I know you're not home"
"How do you know that?"
"I've been making Carmen go over to see you", I answer, "and no one's been home"
He doesn't say anything.
"Jonah?"
"Yeah?", he asks, "you're not in Boston, are you?"
I sigh, "no", I say, "I'm so sorry. I tried to call and say something but it all happened so fast. Blake lost his job, my mom showed up", I add, "I have to stay in Seattle with her until Blake gets a new job"
"And if he can't?"
I gulp, "he will"
"When did you leave?"
"On your birthday. I'm so sorry I missed it"
I think I hear him scoff, "it wasn't all that interesting anyway"
There's something off about his voice. It's hoarse and low- but not inaudible.
"Jonah, is something wrong?", I ask, "don't lie to me. You don't just disappear for three weeks unless something is wrong"
He heaves loudly and his breathing is shaky, "I'm fine. I just have to be on my own for a while"
"On your own?", I ask, "do you have any idea how that sounds?"
He clears his throat, "I'm aware", he says, "that's why I called you. I saw your messages"
"I've been leaving messages for three weeks"
"I'm so sorry Brooke", he apologizes, "I needed time to think"
"Think about what?"
"Us"
My heart skips a beat. I don't like the tone in his voice.
"What- ", I pause to take a deep breath, "-what about us?"
"I can't be in a relationship now Brooke", he says quickly.
Something chokes my breath for a second and my gut hurts, like there's a shard of glass in it. I flinch slightly.
"Is this about me moving away?", I ask, "because it's only temporary"
"That's not it"
"Then what is it?", I stand and pace around the room, "why are you doing this?"
"I can't- ", his voice is shaky, "-I can't talk about it"
"I'm not surprised"
"Don't make this hard Collins"
"You're the one making this hard", I stop by the door, "Jonah, you can't just disappear for three weeks and then dump me over the phone"
"It's not like that", he says, "you're not in Boston. I can't do this in person like I wanted to"
I bite my bottom lip and try to blink away the moisture forming in my eyes, "you were going to whether I was there or not?"
He sighs shakenly, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry", he says, "I love you. I just can't do this anymore"
"You love me but you can't do this", I mutter, "you realize how stupid that sounds"
"It's not", he says, "loving you isn't enough. As much as I wanted to believe it was-"
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FATE
Teen FictionFate, Destiny The fixed order of things. An irresistible power or force conceived of as determining the future. The effect and consequence of decisions made during a man's lifetime. 17 year old Jonah Locke doesn't care much about the effect of his d...