The Wings Called Prequel (COMPLETED)

Chapter 18

"How are they, Doc?" I heard aunt Helena's voice.

"Still unstable. To tell you honestly, it's just you decide. I told you countless times, Helena. We're just like waiting for nothing." the Doctor replied.

I shook my head. No.

Napatingin silang dalawa sa akin. Umiling ako. "No. There's no way to quit waiting."

"Timothy, iho. Para hindi na rin sila mahirapan." sabi pa ng Doctor sa akin.

"No." matigas kong sabi.

He just shruggs. Hindi rin nagtagal ay nagpaalam na siya kay Auntie saka lumabas. Lumapit sa akin si Aunt Helena saka umupo sa tabi ko. "Timothy... naiintindihan ko ang gusto mong mangyari. But, at least... let them rest..."

Tumayo ako. "I said no." sagot ko saka lumabas ng kwarto. Tangina. Hindi nila naiintindihan.

I went back to school and headed to school grotto. I sighed. It's been fucking three weeks but still no sign of Proverbs. Ilang beses akong pabalik-balik dito, hoping that she's here, just waiting.

Sa loob ng tatlong linggong 'yun. Walang ni-isang sign ang nakita ko. No feathers. Black or white. Wet or not. I didn't even think to ask Naver. I know he knows where Proverbs is. Minsan nahuhuli ko pa siyang nakangiti sa akin. Fuck that fucking face. Sarap basagin.

I know it's my fault. I was just fucking drowned that time. I didn't know what to do.

Someone tapped my shoulder. Napatingin ako sa kung sino 'yun. "Bro, bar tayo." ani Jericho.

"How did you know that I am here?" inis na tanong.

"Fuck, Bro. You look like shit. Sobrang nakakaweird."

"What?"

"This is why I am inviting you to go to bar. I just didn't like seeing you... being like this. Seriously, Man. You need to let it out."

I scoffed. "Let it out what?"

"Since nawala si Proverbs, para ka na ring nawawala sa sarili mo."

I sighed. "Samahan mo 'ko, che-check ko muna baka umuwi na si Proverbs."

Jericho agreed. One week after I lost her, I went back home, thinking that she was there. I stayed there and waited for her to comeback. Kasi doon ko naman siya unang nakita, e. Sobrang nagsisisi talaga ako na iniwan ko na lang siya. I just didn't know what to think that time... I was just scared from the fact that I am happy every time I'm with her. That as well, knowing the fact she'll leave me when this mission will be accomplished. It scares me, really...

"Where the hell is she?!" the only thing I could say when we arrived at my condo. Napasabunot na lang ako sa aking buhok. This is all my fault... all mine.

Jericho tapped my shoulder. "Let's just take a sit and wait for Paolo. Tinext ko na siya na magdala na lang ng inumin dito. Sorry for the suggestion, Man. Pero wala na akong ibang maisip."

Ilang sandali pa ay dumating na rin si Paolo. I thought he's going to tease me but he just walk towards us and sits silently.

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Nararamdaman ko na ang pananakit ng ulo ko. I feel so drowsy but I still wanted to drink and drink and drink... until I can make an imagination like Proverbs again. Maybe she's just my imagination like what I have just said when the first time I met her. Sana pinanindigan ko na lang 'yun.

"Ano ba kasing ginawa mo kay Proverbs, Bro?" Paolo asked.

And as I closed my eyes, tears started to drip. "Fuck." I muttered. "I honestly didn't know why I am feeling this way. She's just my friend, right? A fucking friend that is gone since freaking three weeks. Three weeks is too long for me to get over for it, but why the hell I can't forget her?"