But, I'm Not Gay | Taejin

Chapter 20 - Again

"Am I dumb, hyung?"

"No.. you're just.. in love." Seokjin sighs caressing Hobi's back. Jackson was to return next week and has asked him out to "talk". The two went out and had dinner and were now seated on an empty picnic table at the park dimly lit by street lights.

"I'm not getting back with him." Hobi says with a pout and unconsciously crossed his arms over his chest.

"Then why did you agree to see him?" Seokjin asked, he knew his chances with Hobi were thin yet here he was. He doesn't even know why he continues chooses to pursue him when the feeling wasn't the same.

"I don't know.. to clear things out I guess." the other responds lowly.

"If you think that's what's best for you then.. do so. Might be better so you could get rid of questions that may be lingering in your mind.. " Seokjin comforts and the other sighs looking ahead watching strangers pass them by.

"Just remember that I am here for you..." Seokjin says as he rests his hand over Hoseok's on the other's knee.

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"No luck. They didn't respond to you yet?"

"Uhh.. no. Bie told me they were supposed to meet us after shift but I think his phone is off and Namjoon's phone just keeps on ringing." Seokjin answers, annoyed as he wiped his sweat and shoved his phone back into his duffelbag. The mini tournament was just a few days away and the other two didn't show up for practice. Seokjin and Taehyung had been playing tennis one on one for about an hour and were on a break, cooling down.

"We could play another round then call it quits, I guess. Hobi hyung has it in the bag anyways.." Taehyung says as he stood up and stretched.

"I guess so." Seokjin says after drinking some water and stood up following the other.

"Hyung, I have a question.."

"Sure." Seokjin had his racket resting on his shoulder and paused when Taehyung stopped walking to face him.

"How much masturbation is too much masturbation?"

Oh, no. Not again. Seokjin thought. Why can't Taehyung have other male friends to ask about these questions?

"Uhm. Does it get in the way of you doing your normal everyday tasks?"

"Like working and stuff..?"

"Yeah, I see you can play just fine and have been at work too so.. "

"Okay.. well I guess I'm not addicted to it then.. I just.. just wanted to make sure.." Taehyung sighs and bounced the ball on the pavement with his racket. "I'm just worried about my ass is all.."

Seokjin pressed his lips together and tightly held on to his racket. "..You're fine." he choked. "Let's just play to get your mind off things." he says but mostly to himself.

"Want to do it against the wall?"

"Hah." the other let out a hollow laugh. "W-what?"

"I'm kinda tired. Want to work the wall instead? We can run through our strokes." Taehyung says and starts to walk to the side of the court where a wall dedicated for practice was situated.

Seokjin released a dragged sigh. Why did Hoseok and Namjoon not show up in the first place? Now he had to spend time with Taehyung alone and he can't control himself from feeling and thinking too deeply into things.