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As soon as I open my eyes, I shut them

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As soon as I open my eyes, I shut them. Am I the only one who thinks the world is sometimes so damn bright?

After a few moments, I open them again. My head hurts a little and I know I shouldn't have drunk that much. But boy, did it help.

At least, I wasn't sad then.

But I am now. It might have made me feel better for a night but it can not change the fact. The fact that he means so much to me, and maybe I do not mean as much. The fact that I am hopelessly falling for him and maybe he is not.

Or maybe, I have already fallen for him. Well, thankfully, he doesn't know it.

I freshen up and take a shower. Changing into one of my best dresses, a floral one that reached my knees, I tie my hair into a ponytail. I even wear light make-up. And, I didn't do it to impress anyone.

The day is sunny today and for once, I like it. It makes me feel happy and maybe, it has something to do with the fact that I am about to do something crazy.

I am going to ask Ace if he wants to be my boyfriend.

He had made me believe that I was strong. He had helped me find myself. He was there when no one was. And after everything he went through, he deserves someone who'd love him unconditionally. And I would give my best to give him what he deserves.

Well, Ava said I could do it and Dylan said Ace was just scared because this was new to him. Dylan even said he liked me back. That is two people, very different ones. And while one can be wrong, two can't. Right?

I couldn't help but think how he'd respond to it. And, I couldn't help but blush every time I thought about it. So, let's say, I spent my first three classes dreaming about it, occasionally listening to the lecture and again, thinking about it.

Ava, Samantha and I were sitting next to Blake at lunch. They kept talking about how Jackson disappeared.

"I heard his dad died. So he had to return to Australia," Ava says with wide eyes. I almost choke on my own spit. What?

"Still, he disappeared. He should've said something before leaving."

I bit my lip to stop myself from saying something. Perhaps, it was better without them knowing.

Blake looked more sad than the others. If they only knew the reality.

Blake tried to lift the environment by complaining how he was the only guy in the group and pretty soon, he'd turn into a girl or at least gay. I zone out of their conversation as I eat my lunch.

My mind goes back to Ace. I turn around to look at his table nervously but, he isn't there.

"Hey.. ki- Venus."

I jump from my seat and put my hand on my raging heart. I turn around and face Ace. My friends look at us curiously.

"Yeah?"

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