Death by Nature

Chapter 18

I wait by the new meeting spot, I told him to come around midnight.
My whole body is shaking, and I can't stop crying. Sad and silent tears stream down my cheeks and water the grass.
I know I have it wrong, but I don't know what it right. I crawl into the little hole and curl up into a ball.
I never cry, but now I'm releasing all those tears I've held back for many, many years.
"Mila?"
I look up at Vinny, his yellow hat in his hand, and a two backpacks in the other.
"Yeah?"
"Are, are you doing ok?"
"Well, umm, no."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
Everything in me wants it say no, but I nod and he sits down next to me.
"I know you miss her, but- you didn't cry this much when Kiryomi, Melodie, OR Lukey died."
"I wasn't hyperventilating when they died."
He looks confused for a few seconds, then his eyes widened and he wrapped me in a hug. "How much do you remember?"
"I don't know? What, what was her name?"
"Sabrina."
"Oh, ok." Despite the fact that I got it wrong the name rings a bell and gives me a warm feeling. I smile a bit and stop crying
"What did she look like?"
"Well- you don't remember?"
"N- no!" I sob and start bawling like a three year old that didn't take a nap.
"Well, she was pretty fair skinned, and she had long brown hair, it was usually in braids."
"Ok, thank you." I got it so wrong, I don't know her at all. I'm afraid to ask one more question, the answers he might give will haunt me forever. What if we never kissed, or if I never told her-

Never told her how I felt.