Keep you in the dark | Billie Eilish

part 23

(Billie's Pov)

I woke up feeling good for once, I was in Trig's arms, Nitro beside me god I missed this so much. After Trig had kissed me last night I kept smiling like a kid on christmas and spent the rest of the night snuggling watching films and stealing kisses from each other. Gigi was right, Trig does look at me differently I was just too pissed to realise it but I do now and it honestly melts my heart. But happy moments don't last forever.

"morning" Trig said in her raspy voice hugging me tighter

"morning" I smiled leaning over to kiss her which she smiled into

"Billie you in there" a voice interrupted us and was banging on the door

I groaned and jumped up to open the door to see Bullet on the other side

"you good?" i asked

"y-yeah i thought i should tell you um i know we took Shark from you but i- uh he got shot on a mission and sadly passed" he sighed

"o-okay t-thank you" i shut the door and felt everything around me start to spin my world was crashing against me I didn't even realise the tears falling down my cheeks everything just stopped.

I felt a pair of hands wrap around my waist and a head dug it's head into my neck instantly smelling Trig's scent, she slowly started rocking us before kissing my neck softly.

"i'm so sorry" she whispered into my ear "i'm sorry we took him from you and i'm sorry for what's happened"

I shifted around to face her and she brought her hands up to wipe my tears away "it's okay" i mumbled

"no.. no it's not he was your dog"

"i just wish i could've seen him again" i cried again and placed my head into her chest feeling her arms wrap around me "thank you" i whispered

"for what" she asked confused

"for letting me play with him last time and saying goodbye to him"

"there should never of been a last time though" she sighed

"i'm still thankful though"

"come" she took my hand and led me to the bed dragging me down with her and holding me close

Nitro joined us by placing his head on me sensing I was upset. He really is a special dog. His beady little eyes wouldn't look away from me making sure I would be okay.

"i want a tattoo" Trig blurted out without realising

"you what" i laughed

"i want a tattoo" she repeated

"what you gona get this time" i teased grabbing her hand to trace over the ink she already had on them

"a ukulele"

"you don't even play what the fuck" i laughed

"well it's not for me"

"fuck you mean? it's your body of course it's you"