BTS SMERALDO THE NOTES 2 (Edited & Translated)

Hoseok: 11 May Year 22

I Will Not Give Up
Part 10

I woke up to the sound of a text coming through on my phone. It was the Ahjumma from the orphanage.

Where on earth am I?

I sat up quickly and realized I was in Gyeongil Hospital. I lay back down again and looked out the window as the sun started to rise.

Yesterday one of the brothers from the Yangji Children's Home called me. He told me the Ahjumma had a serious illness. Among all the volunteers at the orphanage, the Ahjumma had been a particularly special person to me.

I couldn't remember how I found her or got to her place, but after that phone call I rushed over. I stood outside and looked in. She was talking to someone. And she laughed. Despite her fragile state.

The fact that she was sick and going in for a surgery that may have a slim chance of survival was beyond me. I couldn't believe it was happening.

I ducked down before she could spot me outside her house. If i let her eyes, I was scared I'd burst into tears. I was also scared of saying something like "how could you abandon me as well?"

And so i started walking away. I thought I heard someone calling my name. But I didn't look back.

By the time I was on the bridge, I stopped to look to at the sun. Dizziness washed over me suddenly. My vision blurred. My legs gave out from beneath me. My ears rang as the cars that drove past hooted.

Guess it was the narcolepsy.

Now as I woke in the hospital, I checked the message the Ahjumma had sent.

Hoseok, are you okay?

I was always fond of the people I worked with. The people at the orphanage. The brothers. The sisters. The ahjummas. My school. My friends. Everyone who cared for me and worried for me.

Of course there were some who I was kind to who never treated me well. More often than not, kindness, love and attention were returned with hurt and pain. But I was able to hold on because of those who mattered to me most. Because of those I cared for.

Would the ahjumma really abandon me like my mother? Would I lose her, just like every other important person in my life?

I felt like crying.

"Who's worried about who here? If you're so worried, so sorry for yourself, Hoseok, then please, just stay alive," I muttered to myself.

I opened the curtain around my hospital bed. I startled when I saw someone was already there.

I met their eyes.

"Park Jimin."

Jimin started back at me, pale and startled. He took a step back.

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