BTS SMERALDO THE NOTES 2 (Edited & Translated)

Seokjin: 22 May Year 22

The Most Beautiful Day of Our Lives
Part 4

"I don't need anyone's help," I told Taehyung. "And I'm not helping anyone either."

I'd walked to the observatory so many times and this was the first time Taehyung followed me. Each time loop was different but this time it disturbed me that Taehyung had started to do different things.

"Do you remember when we came here? When we were still in high school?" Taehyung asked.
"We looked for that rock that could grant wishes and found out it was bulldozed down. I wonder...did you make a wish?"

"Let's go down," I said. "I'm going."

I didn't mean to sound cold. If Taehyung decided to jump off the observatory now, then everything in this loop up until now would be in vain.

"Remember when we went looking for Yoongi? He'd been cutting  classes and we were so scared he was going to get kicked out of school," Taehyung continued. "We went around the whole city looking for him. And remember when Namjoon got sick and we tried to cover for him at his job at the gas station? And his boss was so mad at us!"

"Why would I remember all of that?" I asked.

Taehyung looked at me for a moment before continuing.

"Remember when we first met, Hyung? We were late to school and had to clean up the classroom as punishment. And on the first day of school you brought Jimin and I Jajangmyeon?"

The more he spoke, the more desperate he sounded. As if he was trying to make sure I remembered.

"Why would I remember all that?" I asked again, quietly.

Suddenly Taehyung lunged forward and hugged me. I staggered at the sudden gesture. I almost fell off the observatory but Taehyung held my shoulder tightly. I fell forward onto the ground.

Suddenly, Taehyung was screaming at me.

"Are you going to forget me soon? And Jimin? Jungkook? And Namjoon?" Taehyung was face to face with me, his eyes welled up with tears. "Do you know who you are, Seokjin?"

He looked me in the eyes. "I know you're helping us, Seokjin. I don't know how you are. But I know you are and I can't explain how."

Taehyung seemed as if he was uncertain of what he was saying. But he carried on.

"I mean...you were there for Yoongi. You called and went to the hospital. And the emergency on the second floor. And also what happened to you? Why have you changed so much? Is there a problem? You have to tell us what is going on so we can help you, Seokjin."

I didn't look away from Taehyung until he'd finished. Sadness and anger bubbled up in me. Taehyung said I'd been trying to help them. But I had been of no help so far.

And they wanted to help me? I almost laughed at that.

Taehyung thought I had a problem. And although I did have to find the map of the soul, and prevent the accident that would happen on September 30, the wouldn't be able to help me.

And so I pushed him away as I got up and walked away.

"I don't need anyone's help and I don't help anyone."

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