Pentacost Band Series #4 Euphonious Heartbeats

ch.20

#EH20
Selfish

I slowly opened my blurry eyes. Sinanay ko muna iyon sa maliwanag na paligid habang blangkong nakatitig sa puting kisame. Everything was painted with white.

As I stared blankly at the white ceiling, what happened awhile ago suddenly flashed in my mind. It seems like it triggered something inside me, making me panic.

My job.. I don't have job anymore..

My Friends.. they betrayed me..

Shawn.. He tried to rape me. He harassed me.

And lastly.. My baby, oh my god! The blood!

My heart thundered anxiously inside of my chest. I tried to move my body but it felt numb. I can't move too much. It makes me frustrated so I couldn't help but to grunt when pain assaulted through my belly.

"Exzerie!" I heard two women's voices.

Sinikap kong maka upo kahit na nanghihina. I tried to catch my breath when I successfully sat down on the hospital's bed. Sinalubong ako nila Manager Ryle at Kish na nagmamadali sa pag alalay sa akin. Worried plastered over their faces.

"H-how's my baby?" I looked solemnly at their eyes.

Kahit nalulukot na sa sakit ang mukha, sinikap kong maka upo kahit papaano. Kish averted her eyes away. Mas lalong nagpadagdag iyon sa kaba ko. My stomach churning inside, crumbling in uneasiness. My eyes turned to Manager Ryle who has a knackered expression on her face.

"Manager, where's my baby?" I croaked with a dry throat.

They were not answering. Nagsimulang kumalabog ang dibdib ko. Nanatili silang nakatingin sa akin, lumulunok at nangangapa ng salita na maaaring ibigay sa akin. My mouth parted in realization. It made me furious.

"Answer me! Kish! Manager! Where's my baby?!"

Ayaw kong mag wala. Ayaw kong umiyak. Ayaw kong mag panic, kasi alam ko okay lang ang anak ko. Ayos lang siya, buhay siya. Nasa akin pa siya. Kaya hangga't maari ay gusto kong manatiling kalmado.

But with the silent treatment that they are giving to me, I slowly lose my hope. The pain consumed my whole system. Wala akong nagawa kung hindi bumigay at isigaw ang natitirang lakas, dahil alam kong may ideya rin ako kung ano ang nangyari.

Una dahil ramdam ko ang sakit sa ibabang parte ng katawan ko, maliban sa buong sistema ko. At pangalawa dahil sa mga reaksyon nila. They wouldn't think twice before they answer me if my baby is just fine. Kaya kung ayos lang anak ko, bakit hindi nila ako ngayon masagot ng diretso?

I sobbed, the lump inside my throat made it difficult for me to breath as I spoke.

"K-kish, tell me.. My baby is just fine, right? He's still here inside me, right?" sa nangungusap na mata, isinatinig ko iyon sa kaibigan.

It pain me when I saw how tears pooled over her face as she tried to looked away. She put her palm on her lips to suppress her sobs. I cried even more, nawawalan na ng pag asa. Bumaling ako kay Manager Ryle na tulala sa isang gilid. Nakatayo sa tabi ng kama, ngunit tahimik rin na lumuluha habang nakaiwas ang tingin.

What happened? Why are we crying? Buhay pa naman 'yung baby ko hindi ba?

"M-manager..."

"I'm sorry."

I shut my eyes. "N-no," umiling ako, ayaw maniwala sa mga ideyang pumapasok sa isip.

"Manager—"

"Nasaan si Exzerie?!"

Before I can even continue what I was about to say, the door opened. Iniluwa noon ang hingal na hingal na Seymour. His eyes were bloodshot. Bakas ang pagod at takot sa mga mata niya nang mamataan ako. I sobbed harder.