ALL I WANT | charli d'amelio

35 NARRATIVE

CHAPTER TREINTA CINCO

it's the middle of
the night I sit on
the edge of a small
dock enjoying the
fresh air.

It feels nice to get
away from the
chaos for awhile.

Is it bad that I
just want to stay
out here for the
night and not tell
anyone.

I shouldn't though,
I forgot to bring
my phone which
is dumb, what if I
get kidnapped?

But what are
the chances?
Do I even care?

I don't want my
dad to worry so
I should just
head back. But I
think he wouldn't
even notice and
think I'm at a
friends or some.

"Heyy." A voice
says from behind
me, startling me.

"what are you
doing here? and
how did you know
I was here?" I ask
Vincent who sits
next to me.

"I went over to
your house and
your dad said
you went here."
He answers with
a laugh.

"Okay so he did
read my note,
cute. But why
did you come
over?" I question.

"I can't just go
to my best friends
house? But I just
wanted to talk
and see how you
are doing."

"Well I guess we
can talk now, i
do be in my feels
though." I shrug.
I don't really like
sharing my
feelings but I try.

"What's on your
mind?" He asks
even though he
knows he might
barely get
anything out of
me.

"I'm just..
overwhelmed
with everything,
I kind of want
to disappear." I
explain while
looking at the
water in front of
us.

We talk for a little
bit longer but
change the subject
to things like Charli,
my family, maybe
getting a dog soon.

It's nice having that
little bit of company
sometimes.

"We should go
home now." Vince
suggests as he
gets up.

"5 more minutes?
You know I like
the nature." I ask
like a child.

With an over
dramatic sigh
Vince says, "sure
but only if we go
into the water."

I hesitantly agree
before dipping
my toes in to see
how cold it is.

We hangout in
the water for
maybe 30
minutes before
deciding to head
home so we
don't get beat.

"I'm glad you
showed up, it
cheered me up.
I haven't been
feeling like
myself lately
but I'm trying.

—
2 days later.
CHARLI POV

"Jay can we stop
talking about
Ryann for like 5
minutes, it's like
you like her more
than me." I chuckle.

"Sorry sorry she
is just mad
annoying and her
post about me on
twitter." Jay
continues.

"You're still
talking about it
and you literally
talked about her
first. Quite
frankly I don't
believe either of
you." I state.

Jaylee rolls her
eyes and says,
"of course you
don't because
miss Ryann is
perfect."

I don't understand
why this whole
thing is such a big
deal, it's drama
from like a year
ago.

"I'm not getting
in the middle of
your middle
school drama.
Get over it." I
reply annoyed.

"Fine but don't
tell me I didn't
warn you when
you find out she
was fucking
Vincent behind
your back."

"Oh my God
just go date her
if you are that
obsessed with
my relationship
with her." I rant.

With an annoyed
sigh Jaylee says,
"You are so
sensitive, bye.
I could literally find
proof that she lies
to you."

"I think you should
leave." I suggest
crossing my arms.

Jaylee glares at
me and seems
to be thinking of
some sort of
petty reply.

"I only talked to
you to make
Ryann mad
anyways." Jaylee
grumbles before
walking out of
the house.

"Want me to go
beat her ass?"
Dixie asks from
the hallway with
a chuckle.

"No it's okay,
shes wasted
enough of my
time." I shrug.

"I think you
should really talk
to Ryann though."
Dixie suggests
sitting down on
the couch with
me.

I sigh over
dramatically and
say, "I don't have
much to say to
her."

Dixie rolls her
eyes and says,
"suit yourself."
Before leaving
the room.

I'm not the one
that ended the
relationship, I
don't need to get
back with her.

But maybe I do
still have feelings
for her but I don't
know. I do know
that I don't want
to feel this way.

Either I convince
myself to get over
her or convince
myself to get back
with her, if she still
wants me.

"This sucks." I
complain aloud to
myself sliding
off the couch
over dramatically.

AUTHORS NOTES
uGh this chapter SUCKS
I'm so unmotivated right
now to be honest.

ALSO SORRY THIS IS
LATE ILL TRY AND BE
FASTER.

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