NAUGHTY; hyunho ✓

❯ 𝙣 ; 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚢 𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚎

chan glanced from where he sat on the stairs and stood up to go to hyunjin who went out his car clearly hassled. chan stopped him from entering the house, the younger clearly in a state of panic.
❝ chan hyung i can't believe i let them fool me please tell me minho is.... ❞
hyunjin's lips pursed as he didn't see any light from the house and chan held on his shoulders to calm him down.

chan eventually pulled out the promise ring from his pocket and handed it to hyunjin with a sigh, the younger took a shaky breath as he held the ring and gripped it tight while holding it to his chest, shutting his eyes close to suppress his tears.
❝ i'm sorry hyunjin.... minho already made his choice..... ❞
chan watched sadly as hyunjin gripped the ring tightly on his chest, sobbing and trembling that it broke the older's heart. he caught hyunjin who almost collapsed on his knees, hugging the younger tightly as hyunjin just kept crying uncontrollably.

❝ i fucked up so bad hyung..... ❞
hyunjin hiccupped and chan frowned as he stroked the younger's hair, feeling hyunjin gripping onto his shirt tightly.
❝ we knew... i knew this day would come.... but that doesn't mean i wasn't afraid of it.... so i..... tried to pretend it won't come..... that minho and i..... could just... stay together..... but i messed everything up! i messed everything up because i got scared! i'm such a coward! i was always a coward! minho suffered because of me! i'm such a fucking coward! ❞
hyunjin yelled and chan shushed him still letting the younger cry as much as he wanted to.

❝ hyunjinnie, minho chose to suffer because he chose to stay, he stayed because he loved you and he left for the same reason. he doesn't want anything bad to happen to you or the good future that's already assured for you, he just wants you to live happily without any obstacles in the way even if it meant him leaving. ❞
chan said and he could feel hyunjin breathing in a little slower and the younger gritted his teeth.
❝ fuck that fake happiness everyone believes would actually make me happy..... ❞
hyunjin muttered.
❝ all i ever wanted was minho. ❞

❝ i don't care how terrible my life would get, how many people get in the way, how much longer i'd have to wait..... he's just all i needed.... he's the reason i kept living. ❞
hyunjin sighed and pulled away from chan, wiping his tears. the older looked at him concerned and ruffled his hair to fix it.
❝ do you need some time alone? ❞
chan asked and hyunjin nodded his head.

hyunjin flinched seeing lightning in the distance behind the glass window he stood at, he shut his eyes closed and winced hearing thunder soon after the lightning. heavy rain started to fall loudly, and raindrops decorating the already cool glass window, with lightning and thunder still chasing each other through the atmosphere.
he pulled the curtains to cover the window and sunk on his knees while leaning his back on it, covering his ears still hearing the loud sound of thunder.
i'm such a child.
he thought out and flinched again hearing a louder sound.
i can't even handle a simple thunderstorm.

hyunjin sat there, hugging his knees while covering his ears with his hands. the night felt cold, so cold, millions of people could leave him, but nothing can be as painful as that one person who meant his life doing so. maybe, no, it was for the better, hyunjin just doesn't want to accept it. was minho okay? was he sleeping well? is he in pain as i am? he kept asking. he doesn't want minho to go through as much pain he was going now, but seemingly he can't help but wonder how he's doing.

he'll be okay soon.
hyunjin thought out to himself.
he'll find love again, he'll finally have freedom, he won't suffer anymore.
hyunjin kept trying to make himself feel better for minho's situation.
he'll be perfectly happy even without me around.
he thought out last and started to sob, hugging his knees tighter at his own thoughts.

he gripped his phone that barely rested against his hand, he wanted to call him one last time, say everything he wanted to say, or just hear his voice. just something to calm him down right now, and calm his heart that was heavy as hell. it was selfish of him, and probably petty for not giving themselves time but he was really desperate.
he looked up a bit from where he rested his head on his knees, flinching a bit after another wave of lightning and thunder.
he dialed minho's number and it started to ring, hyunjin stared at his phone for a moment before shutting his eyes closed and pressing the end icon. he threw his phone across the floor and went back to hug his knees and cried the whole night.

minho glanced at the window, flinching seeing lightning strike and thunder following it afterwards. he stayed at changbin's place for a while and the younger let him have the guest room to give him some time alone, it was terrible, minho couldn't sleep. he was sitting by the windowsill beside the bed, blanket barely draped over him despite the cold night.
these thoughts and voices wouldn't leave him alone, hyunjin was out there, and he left without even saying goodbye or explaining himself.
❝ i'm sorry..... ❞
minho started to cry and hugged himself while his eyes were still staring at the raindrops now falling on the glass window.
❝ it's all my fault.... ❞
he hiccupped and wrapped the blanket over him as he shuddered from the cold.

he wondered how hyunjin was doing, was he sleeping, did he eat, was he okay, is he hurting or did he miss him. minho wanted to just curl up into a ball and cry till he can't anymore, all these thoughts just kept on drowning him, making his heart heavy thinking that hyunjin might be having a hard time, that maybe hyunjin thought he gave up when he really didn't want to, but he had no choice, he was terrified.
minho wanted to just close his eyes, sleep, cling onto hyunjin's side to forget all these bad thoughts destroying him, wake up next to hyunjin feeling okay and spending the rest of his days happy with him.

lightning and thunder disturbed the rainy atmosphere again and minho stopped sobbing, staring at the window breathing heavily and eyes far away. hyunjin is scared of thunderstorms.
he thought out and leaned his head on the window.
"hyunjinnie, what's your favorite song?"

"through the night by iu....."

❝ tonight, i'll send the glow of a firefly to somewhere near your window. it's that i love you..... ❞
minho sung barely even a whisper, his voice cracking a bit.
❝ i remember our first kiss, i close my eyes whenever i can, and go to the farthest place..... ❞

minho flinched as thunder bellowed again, it won't mean much of him singing right now, but hyunjin must be having a hard time falling asleep knowing he had a certain phobia of the storm. he will be honest, he misses singing for him and hugging him as he slept like a baby angel in his arms. he hoped his prayers and love will reach him, even until when things get better, minho isn't sure he'll move on from this. hyunjin was his first love after all.
❝ just like the letters on the sand, where waves were. i feel you'll disappear, to a far off place. i always miss you miss you..... ❞

❝ all the words, in my heart, i can't show them all to you. but, it's that i love you....... ❞
minho sighed, smiling a little to himself seeing the rain had calmed down, a while of lightning and thunder not interfering the sound of the rain and serene atmosphere again. he hugged himself tighter, remembering hyunjin's hold as the blanket draped over him comfortably.
❝ goodnight, hyunjin. ❞

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