Accept, Not Forget (SLOW UPDATES)

Chapter 2 - The voice of reason

(This is a Lichtenberg figure. Imagine it on her stomach) 

The sunlight peeked through my closed blinds and aimed at the bed where I was laying, the fog slowly lifting off my mind. Waking up, my brain starts to process the two furnaces hugging me protectively to them.

When all sleep has left me, I start recalling the memories of last night. The nightmare.

No.

Memory. This wasn't a random nightmare. It wasn't one of those you get from watching horror movies. It was very much real. It happened seven years ago and to this day it haunts me. I have been getting them ever since that fateful day. I was told by multiple therapists that they would get better with time, and they were. Or at least that is what we thought... I hadn't had any nightmares in a week nor had I woken everyone up with screaming in almost a month.

But life has it out for me. It doesn't want me to forget that night. It's almost as if it knows it was my fault. If I hadn't gotten sick from playing outside for too long, we wouldn't have gone to the hospital and the crash would have never happened. It was my fault and it seems like this is life's way of punishing me. Making me re-live that scenario over and over again. Feeling all the pain, helplessness, and heartbreak of that fateful night.

I was broken out of my trance by a hand running through my hair in a soothing motion. As I lift my head to look up, Luca is already awake. His purple eyes, similar to mine, looking down at me with what I could only guess curiosity.

"What are you thinking about Lu?" he softly whispers in the silence of the room.

I look into his eyes and understanding crosses over his features. "Baby you know it wasn't your fault. Please don't blame yourself..." he said with sadness evident in his voice.

Unable to keep eye contact any longer I turn my head down and start to fiddle with Levi's fingers that are still wrapped around my waist as if I was a stuffed bear. I hear Luc sigh and I feel his large hand on top of my small one.

"If you continue to think it was your fault then Levi and I are also to blame. We were the ones who kept you out too long to play. You said you were cold but we insisted we play one more game. So if you want to pledge someone guilty, it's us" he said softly but determined.

"I could never blame you guys... " I mumbled

With that we fell into a comfortable silence, enjoying each other's presence. Within a few minutes, the peace was broken by me as I felt my bladder tighten. "Hey, Luc?" I asked.

"Mmmh?" he mumbles, his eyes closed and his hand still running through my hair.

"I gotta pee..." I whisper. As soon as the words left my mouth I heard his low chuckle. He untangled himself from me and gave me some space so I could get up and go to the toilet. As I tried lifting myself from the bed, I felt something weighing me down. I look down and I see that a sleeping Levi still has a tight grip on me.