She Who Got Rejected ✔️

Chapter 18.1

Part 18.1

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Hindi ko na matagalan na gan'to lang ang suot kaya naman sa halip na mag-aksaya ng panahon upang sagutin siya, patuloy akong naglakad. Lalampasan ko na sana ang Alpha ng Oleander Pack nang hinawakan niya ako sa kaliwang braso.

"Why do you smell like that spoiled brat pup?!" ulit niya. Mahigpit ang pagkakakapit niya sa akin ngunit hindi sa puntong masakit na.

"Bitawan mo ako." marahan ang pagkakasabi ko ngunit dama ang agresyon sa aking tono, nagbabanta sa oras na hindi niya sundin ang aking gusto.

Pilit na napabitaw ang lalaki sa tabi ko. From my side vision, kita kong napahilamos siya ng mukha. He still look like he's about to shift any moment and it's taking all of his self-control to prevent himself. He never had this kind of control before. The Kaizon I know never back down from a fight as long as there's a reason. He is the perfect example of how an Oleander werewolf should act.

I never met his parents but I heard his father was so strict he molded Kaizon into a perfect Alpha suitable for their pack.

"Red," mutawi niya, "Please."

Hindi ko ipinakita pero labis kong ikinagulat ang salitang 'yon. Please? Kaizon Oleander, saying please? Did werewolves just grow wings and I am not informed?

Napahinga ako ng malalim. Anytime now, I'm going to start fidgeting because of discomfort. Kailangang mawala na kaagad sa paningin ko itong si Kaizon. "Wala kang karapatan na magalit." saad ko.

As expected, pabalag siyang sumagot, "You're my mate!"

"Yes." Lumitaw ang ligaya sa kaniyang mukha. "I was your mate. The mate you rejected." Naglaho kaagad ito nang sinabi ko 'yon. "Our bond is broken, no, not just broken, it's destroyed. Kaya wala kang karapatan na magalit, Kaizon, hindi ako ang sumira kung ano man ang mayroon tayo noon."

And with that, I walked away. Nararamdaman kong nakasunod siya sa akin subalit nagpatuloy lang ako. I reached my front door and was clutching the knob when he said, "Allow me to explain." Napahinga na naman ako ng malalim. That sounds very Kaizon-like. "Please, Red." And now he's confusing me. That's really not very Kaizon-like.

Alam kong kailangan ko rin nito. Closure. Closure na mabibigay ng explanasyon niya kung bakit niya 'yon ginawa. It's useless though. Does explanation really make a difference?

Nasaktan ka na. Halos ikamatay mo pa. Nangyari na ang nangyari at ang nakaraan ay hindi na mababago pa.

Kung malaman ang mga dahilan, ano pang silbi nito?

I opened the door and enter heading straight to my wardrobe to finally grab a freaking pajama. Never in a million years I imagined myself in this kind of situation. Maging ako ay hindi maintindihan kung bakit nagsasayang sila ng oras at effort sa akin.

I am not special. I am not the common standards of beautiful and most people always prey on beauty. I am satisfied with the way I look because I know I would never be a victim of that kind of attraction based on beauty alone, the kind of attraction that fades over time because physical beauty deteriorates, it never lasts, and anything based on something superficial is just as fleeting and unstable.

But here are two people who just for some reasons won't leave me alone. I sound ungrateful, boastful even, sasabihin ng iba na dapat magpasalamat na lang ako, na swerte pa nga ako, may mga taong gustong malagay sa sitwasyon na katulad nito.

But they are not me and this is what they might never understand.

It is better to be alone than to be with someone who is a pale imitation of what you actually needed all your life. Mas mabuti ng mag-isa kaysa hayaan mo ang sariling paulit-ulit na saktan niya.

The thought of being in love with another person can turn most of us into fools. The concept of love is very much romanticize for it is where the root of that word came from in the very first place.

Well, I beg to differ.

Hindi ko na hahayaan ang sarili na magpakatanga.

Instead of looking for someone else to love me truly as I needed to be loved, I'd rather love myself.

Nakapagsuot na ako ng pajama at bumalik papunta sa nakabukas na pinto. Napatigil ako nang napansing hindi pumasok si Kaizon. The Kaizon I once knew would immediately barge in.

"Bakit hindi ka pumasok?" tanong ko.

He looked as if he had calmed down. Kaizon is just now looking at me with sadness and longing on his eyes as he leaned on that wall opposite of my room.

"I would cause further discomfort to you if I did." I don't have words to answer that. "I don't wish to cause you pain, Red, I never did."

"But you hurt me anyway." Hurt is an understatement. What he did almost kill me.

"Yes," he admitted, guilt on his face, "And what I ended up doing to you is much, much worse."

Naglakad ako papunta sa direksyon niya at sumandal sa may haligi ng pintuan. "Bakit? Bakit mo ginawa 'yon?" That's one of my greatest mysteries. "Did you ever love me?"

Humakbang siya papalapit sa akin at nang sobrang lapit na namin sa isa't isa, doon lang siya nahinto. "I never stopped loving you, Red."

Napailing ako. "Hindi ako naniniwala."

He just smiled at me sadly. "And I broke the bond to save you."