Me or Basketball?[A Josh Christopher Story]

5

First month of summer

"Josh cut it out already" I said as he kept looking at my cards. We were playing uno and of course he was cheating.

"I'm sorry I'm just trying to see how I can beat you. You've won every game" Josh said as I laughed

"There's no way you can beat me. I used to play this all the time when I was younger and I just got really got good at it" I said as I put down my last card

"Uno out" I said

"Nah I think you was cheating the whole time" he said as he got up and laid on my bed. I rolled my eyes while cleaning up the cards. I laid next to him and stared at him. He turned his head to the side and looked back at me

"Wassup" he said smiling

"I like you" I blurted out. I covered my mouth in shock.

"Wow um... okay" he said looking away

"Oh my gosh, I'm sorry. That came out of no where" I said getting up. I started freaking out. I ran to my bathroom and locked the door.

"Come out the- just go" I cut him off.

"But- just go please!" I said upset

I heard my front door open and close. I immediately started to question my feelings, my actions, my everything. Why did I say that? How stupid could I have been to think he could've liked me back? The more I questioned myself, the more tears ran down my face. I am an over thinker so it could really be nothing but as an over thinker, you over think everything. Feelings, emotions, situations, life. The over thinking never stops.

I finally took a deep breath and got up. I wiped my face and left the bathroom. I went downstairs and locked my front door. I ran upstairs and shut my door. I laid down and immediately regretted it. I smelled his scent on my sheets. I got up and sat by my window. I admired the sky and the colors. It was a shade of pink and purple but it didn't lose the blue color.

"Honey can I come in?" My mom asked. I walked to my door and hugged her. We let go and sat down on the floor.

"What happened? Josh texted me saying you freaked out" she asked rubbing my hands.

"I told him I liked him and I got nothing back. I felt and feel stupid for even letting those words come from my mouth" I said wiping my eyes

"Maybe he does like you, he just doesn't know how to say it. Boys are a little more complicated with emotions. They know what they feel but don't know how to express it. He likes you and I know it. He's a better man than your father and he isn't even a man yet. Don't neglect him Monica because you'll just push him away and who knows, his feelings won't be the same" she said hugging me. She finally left and I sat there thinking about everything she said. Maybe she was right. Maybe I was overthinking the situation but I'm not sure.

I laid down on my bed and stared at the ceiling until my eyes began to close.

Second month of summer

Summer isn't going so well for me. My mom said not to neglect him and what did I do... neglect him. I haven't talked to him since that day and I feel bad. It seems like when something good comes into my life, I throw it away. Of course I want to talk to him but I know when we talk, we are going to talk about what I did and I don't wanna talk about that. I got a notification and Josh had just posted a picture