Fragile [COMPLETED]

Fragile 52

Fragile 52

"Green?" mahina kong tawag sa kanya

Hindi ito nag-angat ng tingin. I guess he didn't hear me so I called him again. Dahan-dahan ang pag-angat ng mukha nito mula sa pagkakayuko. His eyes were sad while looking at me.

"May problema?" tanong ko nang makalapit sa kanya

Nakaupo si Green sa duyan habang nakatayo naman ako sa harapan niya. nakatingala ito sa akin. Kahit saang parte ng mukha ni Green ay sumisigaw ng kalungkutan. I can't help myself to feel the same.

"Aalis kami" mahina nitong wika

"Ha? Ilang araw? Saan?"

"It would take years and years, princess"

"What do you mean?" naguguluhan kong tanong dito

"Aalis na kami dito at hindi ko alam kung babalik pa kami"

"No..." he's a family now. I can't let him go.

"Princess don't be sad"

Nagsimulang manubig ang mga mata ko. I will miss him.

"How can't I? Mama's sad and you're sad too. Do you expect me to be happy when I just learned that you'll leave?"

Inabot ni Green ang kamay ko. His two large hands envelope mine. Mahigpit ang kapit nito doon na tila nahihirapan.

"And you don't know when will you comeback. I'm afraid you won't ever comeback"

"I will princess. I will comeback for you and for mama. I will wait every passing day for that time to come. Please wait for me too. Kahit gaano katagal... hintayin mo ako"

"Promise?"

  

"I will keep on waiting for you, Princess. However long it takes"

Mabilis akong humiwalay kay Dash pagkabukas ng pintuan sa detention room. Deritso ang labas ko doon. Hindi ko nilingon si Dash...nerd... Green. Kahit saan sa tatlo ang pangalan nito.

Hindi ko namalayan na nasa bisig pala ako ni Green... Dash buong oras naming doon sa detention room. I missed him but I can't accept what I did to him. I can't accept that he also disguised himself as a nerd. For what? What is his purpose? To make fun of me? To fool me?

Nakasalubong ko ang aking mga kaibigan. They called me but I don't have the strength to look back at them.

Tuloy-tuloy ako sa paglalakad hanggang makarating ako sa parking lot. Pumasok ako sa kotse at diretsong umalis sa lugar.

I need a quiet place so I could think. Earlier I have all the energy but it plunged in short period of time.

Itinapon ko ang dala kong bag sa sofa na nasa loob ng kuwarto ko. I went straight to the bathroom to take a shower. Kahit papaano ay malamigan ng kaunti ang ulo ko. Pagkabihis, ibinagsak ko ang aking katawan sa kama.

I usually plan our next move, expertly. Hindi ako mauubusan ng ideya pero ngayon wala akong maisip. Blanko ang utak ko. Kahit anong focus ko ay hindi ko magawa. I stared at the ceiling for couple of hours, forcing myself to think.

Green is here. It took him almost six years to come back. Why now? Why did he introduced himself now? Why not last school year? Noong unang araw na nakita niya ako? Bakit hinayaan niya akong gawin siyang alipin? Why did he let me slap him? Just why?

I am not the same good Daenah. I can ask this questions to Dash but how would I know if he's telling the truth? Sa mga nakalipas na taon nagbago ako. Siguradong siya din.

If I was still the same Daenah, whatever comes in his mouth, I would probably believe him. I let out a deep breathe. This situation, questions and the bother are stressing me out.

My mind keep repeating the first day I met Dash as a nerd until the day I cut him being my slave because I thought he's a weirdo. Habang inaalala ko ang mga iyon lumagpas sa bilang ng aking mga kamay ang mga pag-alila ko sa kanya. Some of those are bad and mostly what I did to him are worst.

He was nothing... I thought that time. He doesn't fit in my world. He's just a slave. Ngunit ngayong nakilala ko kung sino talaga s'ya...

Nanliit ako para sa sarili ko. Supposedly hindi dapat ako makaramdam ng ganon. It's always me who would let people surrounds me feel that they're little.

"This is not happening" napailing ako sa sarili ko

I am disappointed at myself for feeling that. How come a Daenah Santos feel that?

Am I fvcked up?