Because You're Worth It | Jeon Wonwoo

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"How is it? Living with your idol?", She continued asking as if I told her everything about myself when I just told her one simple wish that day.

"I—I'm sorry but p—perhaps, c—can I know why you know a lot about me?"

"Ohh, young lady. I know everything.", Her smile grew wider.

"E—Everything?", While I grew nervous.

"Yes, everything, even the thoughts that's running inside your head.", She was just smiling while I was basically in shock, inside and out. So if she knows everything, even the thoughts in my mind then—

"Oh no. I'm really sorry for thinking that you weren't on your right mind. I really didn't mean to... I just...", I looked down, really embarassed.

"It's okay. I understand. Majority of the people I know doesn't believe in magic too.", I slowly looked up to face her. "But in the end, they did."

"But still, I'm really sorry for thinking like that. It's really wrong."

"You're forgiven."

I pulled out an awkward smile while rubbing my palms on my thigh.

If only I controlled my curiosity, I wouldn't have ended up like this.

"So back to my question. How is it?", How can her voice be this gentle every single time? "Living your wish?", She continued and there, I was then again confused.

"I'm sorry again, but would you mind if I ask everything that's happening to me right now?", My brows were almost furrowing, but I tried so hard in maintaining it soft. The least thing that I wanna do right now is to upset her and messing up with her could lead to me, getting my life more complicated.

"I really don't know what to do.", The gentle beam on her face still remains. "Of all people, why did you grant mine? I really appreciate this big privilege to uhm—uh be m—married to W—Wonwoo but I'm not sure if I deserve it, like there's a lot of fans who buy's a lot of their merch's, goes to every concert they have— while me... uhm— I don't even know if I have any contributions as a fan.", I hate to say it but it's the truth.

"I only did my part young lady.", My brows raised. "You wished it and I grant it. If you're asking why you're here, well, as far as I remember, you wished to be married to him and I just listened to you and gave you what you wanted, from your heart."

"I'm confused."

"Basically, this world existed for you."

What!?

"For whom?! For me? This really doesn't make sense."

"It does and for you someday it will."

I went home pretty late but thank goodness, I still I managed to catch the bus earlier or else I'll have to walk home.

My soles were already on the doorstep of our house, but my mind was somewhere I don't know.

All the things that that lady told me keeps on playing at the back of my head. I don't know if I should believe her but I think I have to. After all, she's the reason why I got here.

'This world existed for you'

How can that be? I'm not even that special to be a beginning of something big.

'Oh and I already told you that you have a hundred days until you can get another wish from the day you last made a wish, right?'

My brows furrowed, 'I'm not sure. I don't think you did or did I just forgot?'

I really don't remember anything that is related to a 'hundred years'.

'Ahyuu~ I'm the one who must've forgotten it. My memory has been really bad lately.'

'Ohh, but uhm... Can't you just uhm— wish for yourself? To cure your memory?'

'I can't. I can only grant wishes for others and definitely not for my own self.'

'Do you have any?'

'Not really. Seeing people being happy because I granted their wishes is enough.'

'What about your happiness?'

'It doesn't really matter. Living for a very long time now is already a some kind of happiness.'

I felt bad for her. If only I have a lot of wishes then I would've had wished something for her.

'You still have 89 days left. You can come see me at the exact place where you saw me first if you ever want to go back but if you don't want to then after those 89 days, everything will stay like this forever.'

'Forever...'

Surely, this is a great thing to have but what about the life I have in the world where I came from?

Everything is so complicated.

It just doesn't make sense—

"Why are you late?", Unable to snap out of my train of thoughts since earlier, I failed to realize that he already opened the door for me. I absentmindedly looked up to face him and to the whole new big level of my confusion, Wonwoo looks worried.

"Did you work overtime? Why didn't you call?", He continued to ask, walking closer to me.

It feels great to have someone worry for me like this. I feel like I'm somewhat... important...

"Hey.", He snapped his fingers right infront of my face, immediately I shook my head, trying to brush off evey single thought that I have.

"H—Huh?"

"Did something happen? Why are zoning out?"

"If this is reality, are you happy?"

"What?"

"Wonwoo...", I started and he just stared at me, probably waiting for me to continue. "...are you happy?"

"Is that what you're worried about?", A smile was finally evident on his face. "Of course I am. You're here."

"But—"

Before I could even ask more nonsensical questions, he pulled me into a hug, one that's tight.

"I love you.", My whole world stopped rotating. His voice feels surreal.

I've told him that I really love him countless times over the phone but by just hearing him saying it, locked in his arms, I can't utter a single word.