Loki x reader ( slow burn)

The nightmares

A/n: hope you enjoy :)
Warning: mentions of abuse
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Why were you back at hydra. A strange man came up to your glass cell.
" hello baby"
" what do you want"
" oh, feisty are we. Don't make me give you another black eye."
He entered your cell and pushed you against the wall with his hand covering your mouth.
You bit down hard, tasting blood. He pulled his bleeding hand back while you ran.

You tried to make your way to the exit but every corner you turned, led back to the same corridor.

You sat up, shaking, sweating. A hand rushed to hold yours. Screams filled the room, you realised they were yours.

" hey, hey, hey. Calm down its just me." Loki said, calming you down.
" I-I was back. Don't let them take me back. Please. I hate it there." You cried.
"Sshh. It's alright. I wont let them take you back i promise." He pulled you into a hug.
Over his shoulder you could see Bucky and Wanda at the foot of your bed, wide eyed.

Thor came running into your room, looking ready to attack. Until he saw your red, puffy eyes and you holding Loki tightly.

" what happened." Thor boomed.
" she had a nightmare" Bucky just about whispered.
" right well, i don't think she should be alone" Thor said.
" Loki" you blurted out too quickly for you realised you had said his name.

" could Loki stay. Please" he gave you a sad smile.
" of course darling"

The others slowly left, whispering sweet good nights.
" shall i read to you." Loki softly whispered.
" yeah. Thanks"
He picked up the book on your night stand. Laid down next to you and started reading. You cuddled into his arm and listened to his sweet words, as you slowly drifted in and out of sleep. The scent of vanilla and mint filled your nose as you felt his chest rising and falling in a perfect rhythm as he breathed.
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You woke up again with a stabbing pain in your head. You slowly sat up to have your e/c eyes meet his emerald ones.
" good morning darling, you feeling any better."
" yeah, thanks for staying with me"
"Of course"

Slowly sitting up, the aching pain in your head only worsened. You stood up and went over to the door, when Loki came behind you and opened it.

" I'm going to make some tea, would you like some"
His face lit up and he nodded gently.

In the kitchen you got two mugs down and two herbal teas. After the teas were done, you turned around to pass Loki his mug only to find the man from your dreams standing behind him.
The sound of something smashing filled your ears, you were shaking as Loki eyed you carefully.

"Y/n, what is it?" Loki made his way to other side of the counter and started clearing up the smashed mugs at your feet.
"It's him" you refused to take your eyes of off the figure in front of you.
"Y/n, no ones there." He shook you gently. You snapped your tearful eyes up to his face and he pulled you in for a hug. You looked back to where the man was, for him to have completely vanished.

You grabbed a broom, sniffling as you swept the remains of the mugs.
"Hey, y/n, let me do that. Go sit down" Loki sympathised.
You passed him the broom and sat down on a sofa just staring into the distance.
You could've sworn he was there. It felt like he was staring into your soul. Drinking down all your secrets .

"Y/n"
Your head snapped up to find Loki crouching in front of you, searching your puffy eyes.
" what happened?" His voice soft.
"I saw the guy from my dream. He was right behind you. But I guess I was just imagining it" you shook your head and watched as your fingers intertwined with each other.

What ever that was, you knew it was not gonna be a one time time thing.
Loki was saying something but you weren't quite paying attention.
After a while, the others trickled one by one into the room, giving you sympathetic smiles. You noticed Loki had moved to sit across the room from you, avoiding your gaze.

Sam sat with the tv buttons on your left, asking what you wanted to watch.
"I- I've never really watched anything before."
He gave you a quick nod before putting on a film about wizards and witches in a place called Hogwarts. It was by far the strangest thing you have seen and you have seen some pretty strange shit.

You got into the shower and stayed there for as long as possible, letting the hot water calm your nerves.
You wrapped your body, that was beginning to fill out, in a towel and went the grab your clothes. Loki was sitting on your beg reading again.

"I feel like you're just doing that on purpose now" you giggled.
Did you just giggle. Ew. Since when do you giggle.
You sighed at yourself.

"Just checking up on you" keeping his eyes glued to his book, he passed you your clothes you had folded to put on.
"Thanks. I'll get changed and then maybe we can train again"
"You sure that's a good idea" this time looking up.
"Yeah why not"
You brought your clothes into the bathroom with you and swiftly got changed.

When you opened the door Loki was wearing his armour this time, and was waiting for you.
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You got to the training room and took of your cuff. As soon as it came off a purple ball of energy appeared in between your now shaking hands.

Loki showed you how to summon it without injuring yourself. He had also taught you to summon random objects into your hands. Today's training session was definitely a success.