Chasing Champions

Will you really stay? In my darkest hour?

Chase POV:

I just stare at the surgeon, but not really seeing him in horror. I could hear Paige ask,

"Um, did you just say that there was two? As in there was twins?"

The doctor looked hesitant before answering,

"Yes, I am taking it you didn't know?"

I could only shake my head no. We had no idea that there was two babies growing inside her. We would have had two beautiful babies. And I destroyed it. I made her so stressed and upset that it put even more strain on her and caused this whole thing. I got mad about her not trusting me to tell me things when this is the second time I had hurt her. I said things that I could never take back, and it killed a innocent baby. Our innocent baby, and I had no idea what I should do. As Paige talks to the surgeon before laying a hand on the middle of my back, snapping me out of my thoughts. I look up at her and notice we were the only two left in the hallway. The question must have shown on my face as she wrapped a arm around me from the side, guiding me down the hallway saying,

"She should be out of recovery soon. Christian is taking Jagger home and our babysitter is going to watch him and Lennon for however long we need her too, and he's going to stop at your house and get some things for you guys. Do you want me to call your guys families or do you think you can do it. I don't mind at all sweetie."

As she was telling me what I missed, I finally noticed that I had blood on my pants and shirt and it made my skin crawl. It was her blood, I was covered in the blood of the woman I loved, and I was the sole reason it was there. It made me feel sick to my stomach. I quickly thought of something else, and I shakily asked,

"How do I even tell her family I did this to her? If Hunter was so mad to the point of trying to beat the shit out of me for knocking her up, he will kill me now for causing all of this. My parents will hate me. The only two that even knew was Jett and Hunter, we were going to tell the rest of her family tonight. Oh god, how am I going to tell her? It's going to crush her, she is going to hate me and I don't blame her. I hate me too. I killed our child, our baby Paige. How can I, how can she ever forgive me?"

As we enter the elevator Paige brings me into a hug as I shake. I couldn't bring myself to care how she was holding me as if I am a child. And as we get off the elevator at the ICU center Paige speaks up,

"Chase, I'm not going to lie to you and say it's going to be easy, in any of it. This is, this is a terrible thing that has happened but it's not completely your fault. She was a part of it too, but not to blame at all for how her body turned on her. And neither are you. You both knew that it was going to be a rougher than normal pregnancy for her with her past. I don't know all the details about her past medical history but you didn't seem shocked over the mention of it. Now for the her forgiving you part? She will, she loves you so much more then you will ever know.  But it will take her time to come to terms with everything that has happened. And she might not ever get over losing a child, I couldn't even imagine losing one. But she will move on, she is a insanely strong person to do what she does after all. And she might try and push you away for awhile, but don't let her. She needs you by her side, now more than ever Chase. And if I ever hear you say you killed anyone ever again I will beat the shit out of you. You didn't kill your baby, it's just a unfortunate turn of events. Do you understand me?"

All I could do is nod, I see her points and agree but I know I will never let go of all the guilt. Not for something like this. But I still have no idea how I was going to tell everyone. Part of me wants to just let Paige do it, but this is something I need to step up for. As we approach the doors and grab the phone to be let in, I was scared. So scared of how she will look as the image of her lifeless blood covered body flashes in my mind. Scared of how she will react to me, react to the news. Before I knew it we were standing in the doorway of her room, and while still pale she looked peaceful. My eyes filled with tears knowing soon that beautiful face will be twisted up in pain. I slowly enter and sit down next to her, taking her hand in mine gently. And all I could do was stare. From the first day I saw her I knew she was going to be special, but never did I know all of this would happen. I didn't even notice Paige slip out then back in with a change of clothes till she tapped me on my shoulder, making me about jump out of my skin. With one last glance I stood up to go into the bathroom to change as Paige spoke up,