Cari POV:
"final round then i'm calling it a night" i announced to the group
We had made it back from the restaurant and were now sat drinking at our house, but it was only the first night, so i wanted to take it easy.
"night everybody, don't go too hard without me" i said as i headed to my room
"party pooper" alex shouted
my back was too everyone and so i just smiled to myself in response to that comment
...
I was just settling into bed when i herd a knock at my door. I assumed it was just Bobby or Alex or carter, but it wasn't, it was shannon.
"can i come in?" she said quietly, poking her head around the door
"yeah"
"sorry if you're trying to sleep or anything, i just have a few things to say then i'll go"
"no, don't worry, i just got into bed"
Shannon looked nervous, as did i probably, it was late, we were both a bit tipsy, and there was some tension there. She sat on the end of my bed and took a deep breath
"you're wrong" she said, making me confused
"i'm not perfect. and no i won't stop treating you well, i'm human, i am doing what anyone would do. you can't ask me not to be a good human. and i'm not going to sit here whilst you take all of the blame for our breakup, it takes two, cari. you can't blame yourself for something that isn't your fault"
"cari, you deserve all of the love in the world, whether it comes from me or not, and i know deep down you believe that too."
"shannon -" she cut me off before i could continue
"i love you so much cari, and i'm not going to pretend that i don't. I guess what i'm trying to say is let me treat you like a human being, don't neglect me because you blame yourself, that's not my fault."
She got up and left before i could really process what she had just said, or figure out what my response would be
i figured i would just sleep on it and talk to her tomorrow.
I tossed and turned for the next few hours, overthinking and analysing everything shannon said, until it was 3am
"fuck it" i whispered to myself
I heaved myself out of bed and slowly walked out of my door, down the corridor, through the kitchen to the other side of the house, where i found myself at Shannon's door.
I paused for 30 seconds to figure out what the fuck i was doing, but chickened out, and went back to my room, and tucked myself back into bed
another half hour went by and i still couldn't sleep, so i decided to text shannon
Cari: Are you up?
This was going to be really awkward if she doesn't reply. what do i tell her in the morning. instant regret.
she replied almost instantly
Shannon: yes, you ok?
i didnt reply, i put my phone back on my bedside table and made the trek, once again, to shannon's room.
This time i didn't hesitate
i opened the door and then just froze. My confidence had suddenly left me.
"Cari?" shannon said, sitting up in her bed
"i just want to be with you, i don't want to talk, i just need you" i replied
Shannon got out of her bed and walked towards me slowly
"are you sure?" she said
i nodded, allowing Shannon to kiss me
...
"i'm sorry for everything" i said as i cuddled up against Shannon's naked body
"i thought you didn't want to talk" she questioned
"i don't" i said, smirking as shannon ran her fingers through my hair and i drew circles with my finger on her stomach
"can you set an alarm for the morning? so i can sneak back to my room without anyone seeing"
"Cari, it's already the morning, if you want to sneak back, you can go now"
"no, i want to lay here with you for a little while longer, please shannon"
About an hour later i was sneaking back across the house and into my own room.
...
The next morning
"morning" i smile at shannon as i walk towards the kitchen, not realising that Alex and Bec were also there
"oh, didn't see you guys, morning" i say more casually
"hey, sleep well?" alex said
"yes, really well actually" i responded to alex who was now out of the room
"they know, they definitely know, did you see the look on Alex's face!" i whisper to shannon, panicked
"cari, calm down, it's fine, how would they know, and would it be the end of the world if they did?"
"true, no one saw me leave or reenter my room so how could they. and i dont know, yes? maybe? no? i don't really know what to think of last night yet" i reply
Carter then entered the kitchen, ending our conversation, but Shannon wasn't finished, and she gave me the eyes to follow her into her bedroom, subtly of course.
5 minutes later, after finally escaping a conversation with Bobby, i was shutting the door to shannon's room
"sorry, i wasn't finished our conversation"
"no, its fine, just make it quick" i say
"i just wanted to say, that i know you didnt want to talk last night, and i had an incredibly good night by the way, but when you are, you know where to find me" she said, smirking
"thank you, i had a great time aswell, and i'm not really sure where my head is at right now, but we do need to talk at some point. oh and, let's keep last night between us"
"fine by me... so, same time tonight?" shannon said, smiling from ear to ear
"shannon! but yes" i reply, shyly
"we should probably get back to the others, before they start asking questions" she says
"yes, but first.." shannon said, grabbing my hips and planting a kiss on my lips
"enough, tonight, yeah?" i say, pushing her away
"okay"
