Cari POV:
Shannon Beveridge is calling
why was that the last person i expected to receive a call from
my heart sunk when i looked at my phone, but i knew i had to answer it.
Cari: hey
Shannon: hey cari
Cari: everything alright?
This was so awkward
Cari: Actually wait. I'm sorry. i'm so fucking sorry Shannon, i wish i could take it all back, if i could, i would, i'm sorry i hurt you, i'm sorry i keep hurting you -
shannon cut me off
Shannon: i'm not going to say i forgive you, because you have hurt me, so so bad, but i can't do this without you, i hate not knowing where we stand. this is me telling you that i'm all in, forever. and if you are in the same boat, great, but if your not, say so, don't keep hurting me.
Cari: Shannon i don't know
Shannon: well thats all i have to say. just don't leave me waiting forever. i don't see my future without you in it. i'm sat here saying i'm all in, all you have to do is commit too, don't overthink it.
Shannon hung up the phone.
I know i don't want a future if she's not in it, so why was it so hard for me to say that. i wish she was here.
'family meeting now pls' i texted out family chat. i needed to talk to them about this, they were all my best friends.
Mom, Dad, Bobby, Bec and i gathered in the kitchen.
i updated them on what shannon had just said, and they all had their opinions
"you're so dumb, cari, as much as i love you, you are an idiot. you love her, she loves you, it doesn't need to be anything else more than that. stop complicating it" bob said
"i know you feel like you keep hurting her, but she is in it, i think you have to just commit" mom said
"you know how i feel about shannon, it would be a shame for her to not be part of your future. she's done so much for you and helped you grow, stop looking for the bad things" dad said
"i think you know what your heart is telling you to do. just don't overthink it" bec said
I was so thankful for these people. they knew how happy shannon makes me, and most of all i think they're scared of who i am without shannon
Shannon POV:
"I've done all i can now" i said to Alex as she reemerged from the bedroom
"the ball is in her court" i continued
i really hope she choses a future with me. if not i guess i will have to move on. for good this time.
...
I spent another hour or so at Alex's but then headed home. i'd organised some last minute dinner plans with some friends to take my mind off things, so had to go and get ready.
i was mid dinner when i quickly glanced at my phone, after not having looked at it in a few hours, and saw that cari had followed me back on instagram.
i tried to pretend that i wasn't really excited by that.
I continued with dinner and pretended to be in the moment, but all i was thinking about was her. i wanted to know what she was doing and what she was thinking. i wanted to be with her.
...
It was the next evening, i still hadn't herd from her. At this point i was starting to accept that i was going to have to move on.
"jess, we have no food" i moaned as i opened the fridge
she didnt respond
"i'm going to the store!"
I was speed walking through the isles, i wasn't in the mood to be grocery shopping at 9pm on a sunday evening, and because of the fact that i was realising i was going to have to adjust to a life without cari.
"shannon?" someone said questioningly from behind me
"Shit" i said, realising i did not say that in my head
"hey alice, how have you been?" i asked, kind of awkwardly
"yeah not bad thanks, i haven't herd from you in a while" she said
"yeah, oh, i went away for a friends birthday and i guess i've just been dealing with some stuff"
we continued the small talk for a few more minutes, and the conversation started to die, so i said my goodbye, but Alice didn't really get the small talk vibe
"we should go out again sometime?" she said, fashioning a smile
Alice definitely didn't get the hint
"oh, you know, i'm kind of staying away from dating at the moment" i said, uncomfortably
"that's fine, you know where to find me if you change your mind" she said, smiling and turning around
After that awkward encounter i finished my shopping, checked out and headed back home
as i got to my house, i realised i forgot my keys, so i knocked hoping Jess was in, but jess was not who answered the door
