Anidita- The Rhythm Of Love [ ON HOLD ]

Chapter 10: Ish Dil Ko Bhi Dard Hota Hai

The time when Bondita entered her room, she was shocked seeing Anirudh sitting on the bed. It's too strange as Anirudh had never entered her room from her returning to Tulsipur and the most strange thing was his expression. Though he was quite but his silence was speaking a lot.
"Patibabu!" Bondita uttered out of shock. Anirudh looked at her but didn't say anything. "Aap inha?" she asked again while Anirudh replied in a harsh voice, "kyu? Nahi aa sakta main?"
"Nahi....vo...vo aap ese achanak...." Bondita stammered when Anirudh replied in heavy sarcasm, "achanak se kya? Kahi esa to nahi kisi aur ka inha honeka intejar kar rahi thi tum?" Bondita became shocked at his conduct. She knew him since her childhood but had never seen him talking with someone like this.

"Main? Main kiska intejar karungi?"

"Yeh to tum hi jano..."

"Main kuch samjhi nahi...."

"Huu!!.....vese kanha thi abhi tak?"

"Vo....main...." Bondita wanted to say but she mixed up at the first word and paused.

"Kya hua Bondita bolo..."

"Vo main...gharpe..."

"Gharpe to nahi thi tum...kyunki pichle adhe ghante se main ghar mein hi hu..." Anirudh gave a suspicious look which made her more nervous and she murmured, "Haan vo main.....Ghar... gharke bahar thi..."

"Kanha?"

"Esehi bass....."

"Esehi bass yah kisike sath samay bitane gayi thi..."

"Kya? Kya matlab?'

Now Anirudh stood up and stated with a sarcastic voice, " matlab yeh ki maine tumhe aur Batuk ko dekha phuchka dukan mein maje se phuchka khane....aur mujhe yeh bhi pata hai tum dono admission karane gaye the....kyu Bondita?" Bondita freezed hearing this. She had never thought in her mind that Anirudh had witnessed them. If he had seen them in the doctor's chamber, what would happen? This thought was making her legs to tremble and she could feel a lump in her throat. "Kya hua Bondita? Bolti kyu band ho gayi tumhari? Kya laga tha tumhe mujhe pata nahi chalega?" Anirudh rolled his eyes wisely and folded his hand,  "Kyu jhut boli tumne mujhse subha? Areh agar mere sath janahi nahi tha to keh deti...ese choro ki tarah chup chup ke janeki kya jarurat thi?" Now Bondita felt relief thinking he hadn't seen her in doctor's chamber but she was not completely sure of this. "Esa....esa nahi hai..." she stammered looking at the floor. Anirudh held her shoulder immediately and pinned her to the wall. Bondita became nervous with his sudden action. "Esa nahi tha to kya tha Bondita?" Bondita flinched at his shout. Anirudh had held Bondita so tightly that his nails were hurting her soft skin. "Aaahh.." she cried in pain, "aap...aap choriye mujhe..." "Kyu choru main tumhe? Batao kyu choru?...jawab do Bondita kyu jhut boli tumne? Kyu?" Anirudh was so engrossed in his anger that he couldn't understand he was hurting her. It was the first time when they were so closed to each other. Their faces were at a few inches distance. They could feel their breath. Bondita's eyes were filling with nervousness with each passing seconds while Anirudh's eyes were full of anger.

"Aahhh.... Barristerbabu!" Bondita cried again. But Anirudh's ear captured just only one word, "Barristerbabu!" "Wah! Aab Patibabu to choro, Birristra babu bhi tumhare muh se nahi nikalte hai kya Bondita?" A aura of pain reflected through his voice. "Aahh... choriye mujhe please...dard ho raha hai..." "Dard ho raha hai? Mere chune se to tumhe dard hi hogi nah Bondita! Mere chune se kyu, Mere taraf dekhne se, mujhse baat karnese, mere sath kahi jane se tumhe taklif hi to hoti hai....." He moved more close to her making Bondita's breath heavy out of immense nervousness. "Yeh...yeh kya keh rahe hai?" she uttered while taking long and heavy breathes. "Sach hi to keh raha hu...varna Kolkata se ane ke baad at least ek baar to tum mujhse baat to karti, mere taraf nazre uthake to dekhti, mera banaya hua khana to khake dekhti, aaj subha mujhse jhut to nahi bolti.....par nahi..." Now some condensed moist was visible in his eyes and the pain was clear in his voice. "Esa nahi hai...." Bondita's lips trembled.

"To kesa hai Bondita?" Anirudh shouted shaking her. "Main tumhari narazgi samajh sakta hu, par fir bhi esa bartav kon karta hai?....itne sare patra veja tha maine, jawab di kisika bhi?.....tum sabke sath baat kar sakti ho par mujhse nahi. Tum Batuk ke sath raat ko beithke sarbat pii sakti ho par mere tumhare liye specially banaye hue khana nahi....tum Batuk ke sath din raat samay bita sakti ho par mere sath ek minute bhi nahi....tum ushke sath college ka admission ke liye jaa sakti ho par mere sath nahi. Batuk ke sath phuchka khana tumhe manjur hai, par mere sath ghumne jana nahi....kyu Bondita? Kyu?....kya itne saalo mein itna unimportant ho gaya hu main tumhare liye, yah phir Batuk itna important ho gaya hai. Kahi esa to nahi tumne tumhari zindagi mein meri jagah ushehi de di hai..." Anirudh was not in his senses when he confessed his inner combat in front of Bondita. But her eyes grew bigger out of shock and she shouted, "Patibabu!!"

Her nervous glare had turned into a serious one and the beads of anger were condensing there. How could her Patibabu think that about her? For a moment she was speechless. But then she realised what he had actually said right now and shouted in rage, "aap esi baatein kese keh sakte hai? Dimag to thik hai nah apke? Aap mere aur apne hi bhai ke baremein esa kese soch sakte hai? Sarm nahi ayi kya apko ek baar bhi? Dost hai vo mera, sabse acha dost...vo dost jisne har samay pe mera sath diya,humesa mere sath khada raha...kisike aur ke tarah nahi jo apne aap se dur kar diya...."

Bondita's words hit so hard that Anirudh became silent.

"Aur kya keh rahe the aap? Important? Haan, hai vo mere liye important, bohot important...par iska matlab yeh nahi ki mere zindagi mein kisi aur ka importance kam ho jaye. Aur aap sakh kar rahe the mujhpe? Kis baat ke liye? Sakh to mujhe aap pe karni chahiye. Khud to dusri sadi ki natak kar rahe the, aur mujhpe sakh kar rahe hai! Rishton ka maryada main bohot achese samajh ti hu aur ek rishte bana ne ke liye dusri rishte ko todna mere swavab nahi hai......"

Anirudh's feet started wobbling with the heat of reality.

"Baat nahi karti ho, Samay nahi bitati ho, Patro ka jawab nahi diya....areh kya jawab deti main? Kya batayiye? Khud mujhe apne marzi se apne aap se dur vej diye...ek baar pucha tha mujhse kya chahti hu main? Choti thi kya iska matlab yeh tha ki mere jivan ke faisle mujhse puche bager liye jayenge. Jab kisika maan chaha mujhe sadi dene ka faisla kar liya, jab kisika maan chaha mujhse sadi kar li, jab maan chaha patni aur apne maan mutabik zimmedari bana di. Jab maan chaha padhayi ka dawa de ke dusri sadi ka natak karne lag gaye. Jab maan chaha khudse dur vej diye aur maan hua to kyu pass nahi ati ho, kyu pass nahi ati ho lagake baith gaye. Kabhi pucha kisine mujhse main kya chahti hu? Kabhi pucha meri kya marzi hai? Meri khushi,meri dukh kisme hai sabko pata, par mujhehi nahi, wah! Kabhi pucha kisine mujhe kisme khush hu main....sab apne maan marzi karte gaye bass. Ek cheez banake rakh diye sabne mujhe.....agar kahi se kisika sath mil bhi gaya, itne logo mein ek dost mill bhi gaya...to bhi problem sabko. Sakh karne lage. Bohot puch rahe the nah aap, yeh kyu? Vo kyu? To main bhi puchti hu apse....kyu? Mere sath esa kyu?"

Bondita fell on her knees. She had finally abled to express the pains accumulated in her heart. Her whole body was shivering and she was panting. The tears started flowing boundlessly and she screamed holding her head. Anirudh became afraid seeing her state and held her hand in order to calm her down.
"Choriye mujhe..." she removed her hand with a jerk. "Haan .... jhut boli maine. Par ushke piche ek vajah tha....yeh nahi ki mujhe apke sath admission karane nahi jana tha. Vo to forms khatam ho rahe the ishiliye. Aur gussa! Yeh Jo aap har patro mein puchte the nah, gussa ho Bondita. Nahiiiii.....aur hongi bhi to kis hak se? Zimmedari ka hak hota hai kya gussa karne ka?" she looked at Anirudh with a mixed emotions in it. The pain and aches were glowing while the rage and guilt were fighting with eachother. Anirudh could feel a wrench in his heart. He tried to wipe her tears but she stood up with a jerk and went away from there running.

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