My One And Only

Chapter 121

Eva POV

I'm glad Jess is home but I'm also still really pissed at her.

She walks through to the kitchen with Daisy and smiles at me weakly.

"I hope you know how mad at you I am" I say angrily

"I know"

"Why did you do it Jess, I needed you here with me when the cops came you promised you would be here but no you were too busy beating Connor up and now I risk losing you because you could get deported"

"You're so fucking stupid" I shout and shove her slightly

"I'm not going to get deported" she says

"Well only if-"

"If what" I ask eagerly

"We breakup" she says and I look at her in shock

"Wh-what" I say sadly

"Why would you do this Jess I need you"

"No please baby hear me out I need to tell you something"

"If it's some sort of petty excuse"

"No it's not I promise"

"Go on then"

"That officer Amy sh-she blackmailed me said that if I don't breakup with you then she'll get me deported and sent to prison" she says

"Jess Amy wouldn't do that, why would you come with such a stupid excuse"

"No Eva please" Jess says as tears fall down her cheek

I look up at her and she does look serious.

"You're being serious aren't you" I say and she nods

I hug her and she hugs me back tightly.

"I'm sorry" she says

"The one time I need to be here for you and I can't be"

"It'll be okay" I sniff

"How long until you have to go to court" I ask

"Three weeks"

"Okay we can do this, I'll fake being in a relationship with Amy for three weeks and then hopefully you won't get deported and then I can breakup with her and then we can get back together" I say

"Yeah, we can do this and I'm still here for you" she says

I look up at her and lean in and kiss her.

"I love you Eva"

"I love you more Jess"

"If there's nights I'm not with Amy can I spend it with you" I ask

"Of course you can"

"I'm sorry for not being here yesterday I just got so angry at Connor and that got the better of me and I acted before I even thought about it"

"You needed me and I wasn't here so I am sorry" she continues to say

"I'm not going to stand here and act like it's fine because it did hurt Jess and like you say yourself yeah I did need you, but I still need you now so I forgive you" I say and hug her

"Are you okay" she asks me

"No, no I'm not" I say and burst into tears

Jess picks me up and carries me up to her room and we lay down on her bed and I lay on top of her.

"I said no to counseling" I say

"What why"

"I don't want to speak to anyone"

"No baby you need to you can't bottle all this up" she says

"I can speak to you though"

"I'm not a professional though baby, if I could I would but I can't"

"I'm scared to talk to someone" I admit

"I understand why I really do trust me I hated the idea, but you need to remember that they're there to help you and they're never going to judge you"

"I can take you to your counselling every week if that would make you feel better about going" she says

"You would" I say and look up at her

"Of course baby" she smiles and so do I

"What happens if you get deported" I ask

"I don't really know, well I wouldn't be allowed back here"

"I'd move to England if you did get deported" I say and her face breaks out into a huge smile

"Really"

"Yeah I love you so much your not losing me that easily" I smile and so does she

"I don't want tomorrow to come around" I say sadly

"Yeah but just think it's only three weeks"

"Three weeks of hell though Jess I won't be with you" I cry and she hugs me tighter

"I know but we can do it" she says as tears fall down her face

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Jess POV

It's really hard seeing Eva like this, she's really struggling and I just want to take her pain away.

"Maybe we could take Buddy out for a walk" I suggest

"Why"

"Mainly because it will be good for you to get some fresh air but also because Buddy needs to go on a walk he didn't go yesterday"

"I don't want to" she mumbles and continues to watch anime

"Baby-"

"I don't want to go" she snaps

"Just leave me alone for a bit" she shouts

I stand up and go downstairs and see Katie in the living room.

"I'm guessing Eva's not okay"

"No she's not I just wish I knew what to do but I don't" I say

"Nobody does dipshit we just need to be there for her"

"Do you want to take Buddy out for a walk with me" I ask

"Sure"

We get ready and then I get Buddy ready.

"I'm scared Katie" I say as we start to walk

"What about"

"Thay Eva is actually going to genuinely like Amy and fall for her"

"She wouldn't do that Jess, especially not to you" Katie says

"I'm just worried it might happen"

"You're just overthinking dipshit"

"I have this weird feeling though" I say

"Yeah it's probably just a feeling of nervousness dipshit which is understandable like you could be getting deported" Katie says

"It's not Katie"

It really isn't that, I have a horrible gut feeling.

The same sort of gut feeling you have when you know something bad is going to happen and it really does happen.

I just pray to God that Eva doesn't fall for Amy.