Make Her Mine In 50 Days

Epilogue

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Epilogue

I don't deserve Brendt.

Those words kept on echoing inside my mind the moment I knew the real reason why he didn't show up during our wedding before. Well, I was wrong because he did show up but I wasn't there anymore.

Throughout the years that had passed when I was away, I kept deep in my heart the longingness and love that I have for him. The only feelings I had left on its surface was hatred and abhorrence. I strongly believed that he didn't really love me. I thought I was his second option because he couldn't have the best anymore―which was Sandra.

I didn't trust him enough. I immediately jumped into conclusion that he realized he wasn't really inlove with me and it was still Sandra who ruled his heart. And because of that, I was easily fooled by my gut that he wouldn't show up on our wedding. I didn't wait for him long enough when I should've had.

Even if Deia admitted that it was her fault, I was still haunted by my conscience and guilt that it wasn't just her fault but also mine. Kung may kasalanan siya, mayroon din ako at hindi ko naman 'yon tinatanggi sa aking sarili.

Nakita ko ang pagsisikap na ginagawa ni Brendt para lang makabawi kay Brayden na matagal niyang hindi nakasama. Naramdaman ko rin ang pagmamahal niya sa aming anak at pati na rin sa akin. Pero kahit na nakita at naramdaman ko iyon ay mas pinili ko paring pairalin ang katigasan ng puso ko nang dahil sa galit, sakit at takot.

Ngunit kung mayroong nasaktan ng sobra sa aming dalawa ay siya talaga 'yon.

Brendt was a victim of my lack of trust and Deia's selfish actions. He wasn't aware that he has a son... we have a son because I hid it from him for years.

Sa totoo lang, kung hindi namin kinakailangang umuwi ni Brayden sa Pilipinas ay hinding-hindi niya makikilala ang kanyang anak dahil wala akong balak na ipakilala ito sa kanya. I didn't think he deserve to know our son because he hurt me, and I was afraid that he might hurt him too if he wouldn't accept him.

Hindi lang siya ang nasaktan ko kundi pati na rin ang anak namin na matagal-tagal ding nangulila sa pagmamahal ng isang ama.

I thought Brayden was contented just living with me without a father, but when I saw how he loved Brendt, I realized that my son was also longing for the love of his father. Ayaw niya ring bumalik ng New York dahil gusto niyang makasama si Brendt hanggang sa kanyang paglaki.

I was a selfish mother... I was a selfish woman.

I found myself turning off my car's engine and going out of it while I was still lost deep in my thoughts. Deia's words about the truth kept on replaying in my mind. I sat down on the gutter and pressed my knees together before bowing my head down.

Never had I expected that something like this would happen. Hindi ko inaakalang magagawa niya akong pagtaksilan. I treated her like a real sister. Silang dalawa ni Selena ang naging pamilya ko noong hindi pa kami nagkakaayos nina daddy. Alam niya ang hirap na pinagdaanan ko. Alam niya rin kung gaano ako naging kasaya nang dahil kay Brendt pero nagawa niyang sirain ang kasiyahan na 'yon.

I don't know if I can still forgive her after what she had done, not just to me, but to my family. My innocent son was the one who suffered the most. Hindi ko talaga alam kung magagawa ko pa siyang mapatawad at ganoon na rin ako sa sarili ko.