I Miss You

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-Hey, my name is Tiziano--Hey Tiziano--I haven't been drinking for four years--Congratulations Tiziano--It detached my mind from the real world but that was the problem, I always knew it was a problem even if at first I couldn't accept it

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-Hey, my name is Tiziano-
-Hey Tiziano-
-I haven't been drinking for four years-
-Congratulations Tiziano-
-It detached my mind from the real world but that was the problem, I always knew it was a problem even if at first I couldn't accept it. Pretending to be someone who I'm not and my career was affected by both. But now I'm clean, I'm with the man I love and I'm happier than ever-

I would never have imagined myself in such a place, the Alcoholics Anonymous. By now I had been coming there since New Year. I knew that some of them knew me, some because they had daughters who were my fans and some for having seen me or heard me around. Some were proud of me for being among them, others a little less but none of them made comments, none of them dare to say anything about it, that made this whole thing about opening up to strangers less terrible.

-Sean- The owner caught my attention, it was clearly my turn to speak.
-Hi, I'm Sean and I haven't been drinking for a month and three days- Everyone applauded me.
-Do you want to share with us what makes you want to stop?-
-I've seen how what I do hurts other people. Before I was alone, constantly, what I did not touch anyone. My sisters too far away and when they came I was able to stay sober, my friends had resigned themselves long ago. But now there's someone I can't hurt-
-And how you feel today?-
-Anxious, I promised myself that I would do something once I got to a month of sobriety. But now I'm not sure-
-Thanks Sean. Our time is over, you all can go- And so they all got up to leave.

I went up to Tiziano to talk to him.
-Hey Tiziano, can we talk?-
The man looked at me with proud eyes. He always seemed so open and happy but from the stories he told he hadn't always been. He had such a normal face, with brown eyes and time colored hair. He must have been in his thirties, perhaps much closer to forty than thirty.

-I was wondering if you want to be my sponsor. I think you are the only one who can fully understand- Tiziano is a singer, like me, even if from another country. He could really possibly understand me.
-You know kid, I've been wondering for a long time when you would ask me- We both let out a smile.

-As my first sponsor assignment, we have to go celebrate your first sobriety month. do you like milkshakes?-

Kaycee

I left myself on my couch with the phone in my ear.
-They will never give me the role- I said on the phone to Bailey complaining about the audition I just had.

"why not? You are a fantastic actress and you are beautiful in blonde"
I raised my back to look at my reflection in the mirror.
-This is true but I don't have the proper physical shape-
"You can work on this. Pass the audition then we go to the gym together to pump you up a bit"
-This looks really funny- I said with fake enthusiasm.

-Have you talk with Sean recently?- I asked trying to make it look casual.
"I thought you were the one who talk with him the most between us"
I took a deep breath. Bailey was the best with advice and I need it.

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