𝑰𝒏𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒍𝒚 𝑨𝒍𝒍𝒖𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 | 18+

《 35 》𝑪𝒐𝒏𝒇𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔

I try my best to calm my nervous breathing.
  Calvin looks at me with a worried expresson.

"You'll be okay."  He says with his suductive slow tone,  "You'll enjoy."  Calvin pauses to place his hand on my thigh,  "Your body will love this."

I blush.
"So uh do you have a condom?"

Calvin just smirks and retrives his wallet from his back Jean pocket.
  He then pulls out a foil packet.

I silently gasp at the sight of the condom labeled large.
 
Calvin notices my fearful eyes and he grins.

"Any desirable positions?"  Calvin raises a single eyebrow at me.

"No wha-"  I say defensively.  Suddenly I'm not sure about any of this.
"Are you even gay?!"  I snap.

Calvins face goes shocked.
"What??"  He says defensively.  "No im not gay." 

"Then no I'm not horny."

Anger covers Calvin's face.
"Are you for real skylar??"

I turn on my stomach and hide my face in my pillow.
"Can you just go."

"What no!?"  I feel Calvin climb onto the bed.
  He grabs me and turns me onto my back so I can face him.
  I quickly cover my hands over my eyes to stop me from seeing his handsome face.

"Why wont you look at me??"  Calvin says through gritted teeth.

"Because if I look at you I wont think twice about you fucking me."

Calvin chuckles,  "So thats a bad thing??"

"It feels like you're just using me for sex."

"What??"

"Please just leave." 

"Im sorry I make you feel that way."

"Well you do."  I say hurt.

Calvin takes both my wrists and removes my hands from my eyes.
"Look at me sky and tell me what you want."

Slowy I study his face.
"I want you to stop abusing me."

He chuckles,  "I do not abuse you!?"

"Calvin you're obviously not fully straight."  I accuse.

Calvin doesn't respond.  So I keep talking.

"Im attracted to you Calvin.  But I dont like how you fuck with me."

"But I thought you wanted to fuck."  He smirks amused.

"Not that kind.  You know what I mean."

"You wanna know the truth Sky!?"  Calvin looks away from me.  "I'm scared."

"What?"  I asked confused.

"Im scared okay!  To admit I like this. . . To admit how I'm attracted to guys."

Im speechless and at a loss for words.
  I notice Calvin is shaking.  Oh my god he really is telling the truth.

I put my hand on his shoulder and he doesn't push me away.

"I get I'm so fucked up.  I should leave.  Im gonna leave and wont come back to bother you." 

"Calvin dont."

He doesn't respond.  He just sits still shaking.
  I make a bold move and wrap my arms around him.

He doesn't freak or make me pull away.
So instead I just sit there and hug him.