Pained Smile (Shattered/Dream angst) [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 10 - Denial

(TW: character death)
(Yes still dead wont be alive anytime soon)

I quickly had my tentacles away. My mind felt fuzzy and my soul felt so heavy. I backed up. I grabbed my head as I looked slightly down. I didnt do it. I didnt do it. I didnt do it. I didnt. I didnt. I didnt....no it wasn't me. I heard voices yelling but I couldnt make out the words. It was all too much. I- I cant. I cant- I cant- I....it wasnt me. No, not me. I would never kill him.

I felt someone pull on my arms. I looked at their direction but couldnt see them, everything was blurry. I didnt mean too I'm sorry. I didnt do it! I cant be sorry If I didnt do it! I- NO! I cant have done it. I felt someone tighten their grip around my wrists. I looked at their direction again, I was pulled closer. "Shattered!" I heard my name called. I try to focus but I- I just cant seem too. "Breathe! Focus....me!" Their voice is fading? I try to focus.

It's not my- no no. My vision cleared and I see Cross up close to my face. "That's it, breathe..." Cross said slowly. I realized how bad I was shaking, how heavy I was breathing, and I was crying non-stop. What was happening to me? I heard someone else crying too. I backed my face away from Cross's and took in my surroundings. So many negative emotions I felt from everyone. I.... I- no. I didnt do this. I cried harder.

I killed Blue.

No no no no no no no. I would never! He- he jumped in the way! It's his fault! I....would never. I hugged myself. I saw Ink clutching tightly to Blue's scarf. Nightmare was looking away so I couldnt tell what he was doing. But I knew he was also down. I hugged myself tighter. I looked at Cross, "I keep screwing shit up...." I whispered but it was loud enough for Cross to hear. I didnt want to be here anymore, it hurts. I teleported away.

I couldnt have killed Blue, I would never kill him. Yeah. Yeah....

......

(ALRIGHTY, well Blue died. RIP him lol. Hoped u enjoyed and I bet you weren't expecting that (hopefully).)