Pained Smile (Shattered/Dream angst) [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 12 - Bargaining

I paced around the room. Earlier today when I let all my anger out I just felt sick. After my head was cleared I remember why I was so angry. But what was the reason to feel angry over anything else? I kept thinking about the accident, I still felt responsible and guilty over it.

"Ugh, if only I was able to control my damn emotions. What if I just teleported away? What if I hid those feelings deep inside so I didnt screw anything again....and again..." I mumbled under my breath as I was pacing back and forth. "What was the point of being friends with them? Because I felt lonely? What if I just cut all ties with them before so no one died?" I kept murmuring on about what if I did this and did that way earlier on like my past self would even knew what would've happened.

Even after time passed, I ignored the pain in my feet from pacing so much. And ignored the pain everytime I accidentally bite on my hand or finger from biting on my gloves. I felt tired but not able to feel sleepy and I know I pretend not to see it but I kept seeing a flash of blue for a second, barely noticable. Which made me feel more tensed.

(Hoped you enjoyed the chapter.)