The New Girl

Chapter Fourtyeight

It was finally the weekend and through the rest of the school week I managed to avoid Jason and Tyler.

The school had to give me some sort of punishment for fighting on school grounds so they gave me lunch detention so that made it easier.

But now that school is over and the weekend was here I knew I needed to deal with everything. I had made up my mind mostly and I had to do what my heart felt right.

I texted Jason and asked him if we could talk as I walked back down the stairs and to the living room.

"Hey Lilly, your grandmother had a fall so we're going to go check on her. We're taking Carrie but we need you to stay and watch the house. We'll be back tomorrow morning, I just don't want her trying to push herself tonight." My mom said as she gathered a few things.

"Okay that's fine, tell her I love her." I stated sitting down on the couch. "We will." Dad smiled while ruffling my hair.

"Carrie come on!" Mom yelled up the stairs as Carrie jumped down the stairs. "I'm coming!" She whined while still jumping to each individual step.

"Carrie seriously we need to leave if we're going to beat traffic." Dad sighed already sounding exhausted.

"Traffic can wait dad I'm almost down." Carrie stated as she reached the final five steps. It was silent as she jumped down the remaining steps.

"Okay, we can go now." Carrie chirped before running out the door. "We love you, lock the doors." Mom called as she shut the door.

My phone dinged and I saw it was Jason. He asked where I wanted to meet. I told him to meet me at his spot in twenty minutes.

I got up and got my keys and a bottle of water. Once I got back I would talk to Tyler. I needed everything sorted by tonight to make things less tense within the group.
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I was swinging when Jason got there. He came and sat in front of me. It was quite for a minute as I looked at the waterfall.

"You remember the day you brought me out here for the first time?" I asked as my thoughts started to run together.

"That was the day I knew I wanted to be with you." Jason stated making my head slowly
turned towards him.

"Jason." I said lowly. He let out a small laugh. "You're making the wrong choice Lilly." Jason said looking away from me.

"Jason I can't just give up on him yet. He'll fall right back into his hole." I said as tears filled my eyes. I blinked them back as best as I could.

"Is that the only reason you are picking him? Because you're scared of what he'll do if you don't?" Jason asked. "Jason you all asked me to get him back to himself and I did that, I can't be the reason he falls back into the old habits." I stated feeling awful that I even have to say this to Jason.

"Lilly he gave up on you first! He didn't fall into a hole when you left, he dug it. Do you think we just let him fall into the wrong crowd and completely abandoned him just because he got moody?" Jason shook his head before continuing.

"He was moody before you got here we are used to that. But when you left he didn't even come say goodbye, like it was your fault you weren't on great terms. Then he blew off your family every time they tried to talk to him. He started fucking as if that wasn't the reason you weren't with him anyways and then said you shouldn't of left if it mattered. While he was doing every single thing he knew you would hate I was checking on your family and playing with Carrie. I couldn't even look at another girl Lilly and I hadn't even been with you. So I'm telling you you are making the wrong choice. Yea he was hurting, but you were hurting worse and if he couldn't except that he didn't come first in that situation then he doesn't deserve to come first in this situation." Jason let out everything at once stunning me.

"I- I don't-" I couldn't get words to form as my eyes started watering. "Shit, I didn't want to make you cry." Jason said wiping my tears away gently.

"Look Lilly at the end of the day it is your choice and I'll respect it either way. I'm just saying I know Tyler better than anyone and he's not good for you. And I don't think I can watch y'all together much longer knowing everything he did while you were gone." Jason talked softly.

I looked up into his eyes and I could tell he was telling the truth. "I think I should talk to Tyler before I make a decision. He deserves at least that." I whispered.

"Do whatever you think is best." Jason nodded. "I promise I'll get back to you tonight." I said slowly pulling away from his hands.

I didn't let myself look back as I got in my car and drove off. I had my mind made when I left my house. Tyler. But now all I could think of was what all was Tyler not telling me.

I got to the house and told Tyler to come over. He came in through the window like I expected him to. I almost was praying he would just incase it was the last time.

"What's up? Why have you been avoiding me this week?" Tyler asked. "I had to think without being around you." I stated.

Tyler's face dropped when he realized I had been crying. "About what?" Tyler asked. "You know what." I stated. "Please tell me this isn't what I think it is?" Tyler's face dropped more.

"How long?" I asked hoping I wouldn't have to finish the sentence. "What?" Tyler asked taking a step towards me. I took a step back. "How long?!" I asked again.

"Until what?" Tyler was confused. "How long did you wait after I left until you fucked her again?" I asked as tears left my eyes again.

Tyler remained quite making my heart fall. "How. Long." I pushed. "Lilly I was hurt and lost and I-" Tyler started but I cut him off.

"No Tyler I was hurt and lost! I was the one that just lost a best friend! I was the one who got cheated on! I was the one that needed help! You were the one who lied! You were the one that chose not to wait for me! Tyler I'm tired. I'm so tired. And you are exhausting." I let the words flow out of my mouth freely.

"I'm sorry Lilly." Tyler tried to make it better. "Me too. Tyler I love you, I'll always love you. But I can't let myself be in love with you anymore. I've already given you all the chances I could." I barely got all the words out.

"Lilly don't do this." Tyler grabbed my face. I closed my eyes as tears escaped rapidly. "We both knew this moment was going to come eventually Tyler." I whispered before pressing my lips to his one last time.

He kissed me back slowly trying to make time stop. I pulled away and took a breath forcing myself to hold it together.

"I hope we can still be friends, I'm still here if you need me." I said opening my eyes.

"Lilly please." Tyler whispered. "You know I can't." I whispered softly. "Are you choosing him?" Tyler finally asked the question I had been dreading.

"Tyler I am sorry, he has been here for me through everything. If you're going to hate either of us hate me." I whispered making my mind up.

"I don't hate either of you. I can't. I did this to myself and I know that. I just hope he makes you as happy as I always wanted to. I love you Lilly." Tyler was forcing the words. I could feel it, even if he meant them he didn't want to say them right now.

"Just please go easy on me Lilly. I can't see you all over each other yet." Tyler said as he reached my window. I nodded as I held back my tears.

Tyler opened my window and sat with half his body out before looking at me. "You should really lock your window, there are weird people in this world." Tyler said before going.

That sentence was enough to make all the tears leave my eyes. I let out a sob as I walked over and locked my window and shut the curtain.

I sat down quickly and just let all the emotions out. I wasn't crying because of my choice. After talking to both I know Jason is the one I want.

I am crying because I was finally letting Tyler go romantically. He has caused me so much happiness and pain and it's time for me to close that chapter. It should've ended the moment I found out he slept with Amy.

I think deep down it did end there and I just let myself think I could love him the way I did before just so I could hold on a little bit longer. I took a deep breath to calm myself down.