Chapter 20

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Things have been going smoothly over the past week. Harry has been staying at the Tomlinson's, even if the family says they love him, he couldn't help but feel like a burden. He really wants to move out but isn't that stable to live by himself. He has been going to therapy all along and he is feeling way better all thanks to his boyfriend. But there are still times, when the voices are so strong he couldn't help but submit to them. He feels like he will relapse any second now and that's why he has been so upset lately. Louis seemed to notice that but didn't say anything about it till now. But he decided that he had enough, he will see what's bothering his baby.

They were sitting in the living room watching tv, just the two of them. Then Louis said, "baby is everything okay?"

Harry shifted his gaze from the tv and frowned, "why wouldn't everything be fine?"

"Was just worrying that you seem upset lately."

His frowned turned into a angry expression, "well you don't have to baby me everytime. I am quite capable of handling things."

"Jeez. I am sorry babe. Don't get worked up, please."

"You know what this whole conversation doesn't make sense. You just think I am not capable enough of doing anything. You see me as a burden. I- " tears were streaming down his face. He rushed towards Louis's room and locked it. Louis got up and rushed behind him and started banging on the door.

"Baby please open up. I never said you were a burden. You are anything but a burden." Louis whimpered and continued banging, he heard soft cries from the other side. He felt his heart break at the sound. His baby was inside crying.

"Please open up. Please."

Suddenly the cries stopped and soft words were being said by Harry. Louis knew exactly what was happening. The soft words turned into loud screams.

"No! He doesn't mean that. NO!" Harry shouted.

"Harry please don't listen to them. Please." Louis pleaded, tears were threating to fall from his eyes.

"No! I won't do it." Anpther shout from Harry. Louis was panicking. He did what he thought was the best idea. He tried to break through the door.

1st attempt. Fail.

2nd attempt. Fail.

3rd attempt. Fail.

4th attem- He broke through the door and saw Harry on the ground hyperventilating and clutching his body ever so tightly and shivering vigorously. 

He rushed to Harry's side and held his Harry in his arms. Harry was shivering. He started whispering sweet things in his ears. "Don't listen to them, I am here for you Hazzy."

"Baby  please come back to me."

"I am here for you baby."

He started rocking Harry back and forth and placed kisses all over Harry's face to calm him down. It took a good 10 minutes to stop him from crying. Harry was not crying anymore but still shivering lightly and clutching onto Louis like it was the end of the world.

"I've got you baby." Louis said and as the words left his mouth, they seemed to do some kind of magic on Harry, his body visibly relaxed and he stopped shivering. Wow.

"It's okay Princess. I am here." He said kissed Harry's forhead.

He knew what exactly he had to do to calm Harry fully down.

What am I supposed to do without you?
Is it too late to pick the pieces up?
Too soon to let them go?
Do you feel damaged just like I do?
Your face, it makes my body ache
It won't leave me alone

And this feels like drowning
Trouble sleeping
Restless dreaming

You're in my head
Always, always
I just got scared
Away, away
I'd rather choke on my bad decisions
Than just carry them to my grave
You're in my head
Always, always, always

Cracks won't fix and the scars won't fade away
I guess I should get used to this
The left side of my bed's an empty space
I remember we were strangers
So tell me what's the difference
Between then and now

And why does this feel like drowning?
Trouble sleeping
Restless dreaming

You're in my head
Always, always
I just got scared
Away, away
I'd rather choke on my bad decisions
Than just carry them to my grave
You're in my head
Always, always, always

Always, always

You're in my head
Always, always
I just got scared
Away, away
I know there's nothing left to cling to
But I'm still calling out your name
You're in my head
Always, always, always
Always

Always, always, always


Harry was fully calmed now and back to his full senses, but still held onto Louis like a koala bear.

Green met Blue. "I am sorry Lou-" Harry was cut off by a pair of lips. The kiss was full of love and the feelings that they share for each other. It was salty as well due to the tears. Eventually they pulled away. Why?

"It's not your fauly baby. Don't ever listen to them, they just want to tear us apart. But I won't let them. You have no idea how proud of you I am. You handled it better than before. You didn't give in what they were saying."  Louis said and kissed him again.

"I love you Harry Styles."

Harry's eyes widened at the confrontation. His mouth fell open. It took him a minute to recover. Then he realized he never replied to Louis's confrontation. 

"I l-love you too Lou." He said with tears falling down.

Louis shook his head and wiped Harry's tears and said, "no need to cry baby."

"You are crying too." Harry said with a heavy cry-ie chuckle and kissed Louis's tears away.

"Baby I would walk through fire for you." Louis said and held him tightly.

"What if you get burnt?" He replied with a smirk.

"Argh I won't because your love makes me, us fireproof."

"You are such a sap." Harry giggled.

"But you love me." Louis smirked.

"That I do." Harry laughed and kissed his Louis. HIS LOUIS.

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A/N

It was hard for me to write this. Wasn't ready for a breakdown.

So the love confession? Yay.

Tbh I wasn't sure if they already said their "I love you's" but I was too lazy to check. So if they already did I am sorry?

Okay now bye.

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