Over the next few days, Semi asked me to go to the skating rink with him and every time I needed to reject his offer. As much as I would love to go there with him, I couldn't. It was too risky and I was too scared of what Semi would think of me if he found out the truth. Tendo kind of helped me to keep the whole me being Rou thing a secret from Semi because he knew that Semi would be at least a bit mad. I personally thought that he would be more than just mad but Tendo said that he wouldn't be that mad when I told him and I knew that Tendo was right but I was too much of a coward to do so. I knew that he would find out eventually but I just hoped that this would happen at the end of my year here.
That made me realize, that I would leave Semi and Tendo at one point. I've been here for two months already which meant that I had only ten months left. Ten months may seem like a lot but I knew that time would pass way too fast. I already missed them. I didn't want to leave. It was probably too early to worry about leaving but I knew that leaving would be hard and I knew that I wouldn't be ready.
In some way, it would be good because I wouldn't need to keep this secret from Semi anymore but I was just trying to find good things about me going back home now. I was acting as if I was going back home in a week or something like this but right now I would think about anything so I wouldn't need to think about telling Semi about me being Rou.
I really should but I wouldn't. I knew it was better but when did I ever do something right? I could have told Semi that I could actually skate the first time he 'taught' me how to skate. I could have told him later too. I could have told him that I was Rou when he first talked to me about Rou. I had so many chances but I missed every one of them. I could still do it. It wasn't too late yet but I knew damn well that I wouldn't. I've never been someone to take risks and this path seemed to be the safest one right now although I knew that it sure as hell wasn't.
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better than me, SemiShira
FanfictionShirabu is a new exchange student. He lives with the family of one of his classmates, Tendo. They are really close to another family, the one of Semi. Semi offers Shirabu to teach him how to inlineskate although this is already really good at it. Y...
