The Broken Promise (COMPLETED)

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Shyme’s POV:

As I’ve leave my elementary days, I learned a lot. That despite of those things that makes you scared, learned to conquer your fears and weaknesses. My Mama come home when I graduated at grade six. I received a lot of awards and certificates and got the chance to deliver my speech as the class valedictorian. It’s so great that it was the first time that I saw my Papa shed tears because of me. Some people congratulated me and the school thanked me for making history as the youngest pitcher of softball in our school.

Tulad nang sinabi ko no’n, na ayaw kong mag-aral sa school ng mga pinsan ko, sa Catholic school kase even though I became the class first honor, I’m not that confident to tell that I’m smart. I’m still out of confidence. But my Mama already told the father director of the Saint John High School that I’ll be studying there for high school. I’m so nervous kasi matatalino lang ang napapasok don and I don’t consider myself as one.

“Shyme, maghanda ka na at pupunta na kayo ng pinsan mong si Amira sa St. John, may dorm sila doon. At hindi mo kukunin ang cellphone mo, hindi allowed don.”- sabi sakin ni Papa habang ako naman ay nag-aayos ng gamit ko. Dormitory daw ang tawag sa bording ng girls kasama na ang mga babaeng guro tapos sa boys naman daw ay Cottage.

Isinukbit ko na ang bag ko na naglalaman ng damit, can goods, uniform at school supplies. Kada hapon ng biyarnes daw kami uuwi at babalik sa umaga o hapon ng linggo. Pwede naman daw kumuha ng cellphone pero isusurender daw at hapon ng biyarnes makukuha. Parang walang silbi din eh. Di mo din magagamit diba?

Sumakay na kami sa tricycle namin at nagayak na sa dorm.

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Pagpasok ko palang ay naalala ko na naman noong sinama ako ni ate Jhelly dito. Maliit pa ako noon, grade two tapos ngayon dito na ako mag-aaral. Ang bilis lumipas ng panahon. Parang kailan lang eh.

Binaba na nila ang durabox ko, yung lima ang lagayan. At cabinet na paglalagyan ng gamit pang kusina at gasol. Pumasok ako sa dorm at bumungad sakin ang dalawang mahabang table sa dining. Pwede ang and trenta katao na kumain. At mga kwarto. Binasa ko ang daily schedule na nakadikit sa pader at mga rules and regulations. Mga cufews at iba pa. dapat before six pm ay nandito na, bawal ang cellphone, at may mga nakatukang maglinis ng paligid ng dorm. Sa kwarto namin, sa labas, sa cr at dito sa dining.

Nang mag-alas sais na ay tumunog ang kampana ng simbahan at kapag Katoliko ka ay magsa-sign of the cross ka. Tahimik kaming lahat. And after ng dinner ay nagholy rosary kami. I admit that I’m learning a lot here. Before we sleep, we introduced ourselves, kaming new sa mga old na dormitorians at sa mga teachers. Ramdam ko pa ang panginginig ng aking pisngi. Ganon ako pag nahihiya habang nagsasalita eh.

Naging masaya naman ang pagtira ko sa dorm kaso hindi nagtagal kasi may nakaalitan akong teacher namin. Although it was misunderstanding pero nasaktan ako and she embarrassed me in public kaya umalis ako sa dorm and even may dormates. Actually matagal ng dorm yon, don din nagdorm ang anti kong nasa abroad.

Hindi ako nagkahonor noong grade seven until eight pero noong nine ay oo na. Napasok ako sa top fifteen at nagka awards.

Nang mag-grade ten ako ay nagkaroon kami ng new teacher. Yung teacher na nakaalitan ko noon ay kinuha ng ibang school kaya hindi na siya nagtuturo samin. Yung pumalit ay may pagka-istrikta at very religious. Very fair sa grades and also frank when she’s speaking especially when she knows that she’s right. She used to call me in my surname. Siya lang ang teacher na natawag sakin non.

She’s so nice. Very close siya saming students niya, and also she’s a good singer din. Sa katunayan siya ang teacher namin sa choir. Tanda ko pa nong nag-audition ako, pero hindi pa siya ang adviser namin non, “This is My Now” ang kinanta ko. Nahiya ako kasi palakpakan sila pero nadulas pa ako non at navideohan pa ata. Ah, basta nakakahiyang parte yon ng high school ko kahit grade seven pa ako non.

Naging kilala ako kasi magaling daw akong kumanta ng church songs. I gained a lot of friends and also awards again.

As I’ve graduated my Junior High School, di ko parin siya nakakalimutan, Dale. I even search his name in facebook pero walang result. Siguro ibang name ang ginamit niya. Miss ko na siya. Siyam na taon na, wala parin siya. Ang tagal naman niyang bumalik.

Babalik ka pa ba? O hindi na? kasi ang hirap maghintay sa wala. Walang kasiguraduhan. Masakit, nakakapagod.

Senior High na ako. I took HUMSS strand. Also known as Humanities and Social Sciences. Aside from that, yun lang ang available dito sa school and I don’t want to leave my school yet. Diko akalain na mapapamahal ako dito. I extend two more years studying here. I became grade eleven and also experience to be a campus officers although I didn’t run willingly for candidacy. Talkative daw kasi ako, jolly and very enthusiasm. Super strict kasi ang director namin kaya medyo takot ang iba na tumakbong campus officer kaya pinipilit kami ng principal na sumali kapag hindi daw ay bagsak kami. Nako, sanay na kami diyan. Mga panakot na nakakatakot.

So I did. Sumali ako kahit napipilitan. And it worked, I won. Not for General Beadle(President) but as a student body. Okay na yon. At least kahit hindi ako willing, may mga students na tiwala sakin na maili-lead ko. It’s very overwhelming. My senior high was great, I was awarded as a good essay writer in both English and Filipino category. I wasn’t able to have an honor in first sem but bumawi ako to other semester and nagkahonor din.

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I thought my grade twelve will be amazing as the past years of my high school but I was wrong. We lost our favourite teacher, a woman who became my inspiration, our big sister, mother and educator. Our grade ten adviser died because of motorcycle accident. It was so sad but we have to accept. It’s God’s plan and we have to trust him.

And I can say that grade twelve is still amazing. The section where I will never forget. I became their Class Beadle or President. They nominate me while sleeping. Antukin kasi ako kaya hindi niyo ako masisisi. I sleep with or without class even during class hours. Paggising ko ako na ang president. I shoulder a lot of responsibility. Mahirap but it makes me more matured and how to handle the whole section. Hindi naman ako istrikta, it depends if sumosobra na sila. I experienced to cry because of clearance and everything. I enjoy my high school life.

Until I graduated, I have a lot of admirers, not boasting but I decline them. Wala eh. May hinihintay. And I hope, hindi na siya magpahintay dahil sukong-suko na ako.

I love him pero mahal ko din ang sarili ko.

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