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-나는 그들의 것, 그들의 내 꺼야-

"areum, can you please say something" he said to me

we had entered the café and he had ordered for us, but the entire time i looked numb. i was stuck spacing out the entire time. dissociating. he asked me questions and told me things from the past, but still i said nothing

i was stuck wishing i wasn't there, i just wanted to go back to sleep and forget all my problems

forget that they weren't here

"areum" he called out again, this time holding my hand. "we don't have to talk about it, if you don't want" his tone was sad. he was so worried for me

i nodded my head softly

i didn't want to burden him with something as trivial as missing someone

more like, multiple someones

i think i'm only truly happy when all thirteen of them are here. it all seems so meaningless without all of them

soonyoung stood up from his chair and moved to sit next to me, "if you want" he started, "you can go into therapy. that way, you don't have to talk to us, but you can still talk to someone" he said

"no" i muttered, staring down at the cold drink between my hands

therapy is for people who have mental problems, i can't got there

plus, there are people who are worse off than me

"therapy isn't a bad place. going to therapy doesn't mean you're weak, areum" he explained to me, his hand on my back

"you're too young to let the world break you. if you go to therapy and you don't like it, we'll take you out" he continued, "but areum, it can help you. i don't want to see you like this. i don't want to see you so depressed" his hand on my back started moving side to side, "i miss seeing your smile" he placed his head on my shoulder

"please go. so you can get better" he whispered, "i went once, it helped me. please"

"you went?" i muttered, surprised he, one of the strongest person i know, had do go there

soonyoung was always the mentally strong one. he always had a smile on his face. sure, he would go into fits of anger sometimes, but he was still always so strong

at least in my eyes, he was

"okay..." tears formed in my eyes

-end of flashback-

"please, don't die" i whispered as i looked at soonyoung who was sitting in the seat in front of mine

i can live without one of you, please don't die...

"areum" vernon pulled me closer to him, making me sit on his lap and placing his arms around me, trying to comfort me

"he'll be fine" he whispered in my ear, "he's seven hundred years old. a few wooden bullets won't kill him" his nose was nuzzled against my neck, every time he spoke it sent vibrations throughout my entire body. i could feel the hair at the back of my neck stand up, it sent shivers down my spine

"i'm just worried" i said back

🌷

when we walked in through the front door, vernon holding onto my shoulders, i watched as mingyu brought in soonyoung, carrying him over his shoulder