Mini Giles

18- Now what!?

I left Spike's crib shortly after our awkward but nice moment. I didn't know what to do, could I stop this thing? Was I just going to die? I have no clue, and I'm scared, so scared. But no one knows that of course, because I'm Kat the brave witch. Well that's what everyone thinks. I'm not. I didn't want to move here, I wanted to stay in England, go to school, practise magic in secret, read books all day long and do other boring quiet stuff that didn't involve demons and vampires. I didn't realise but half way out the cemetery I had started crying, pretty heavy too. My sleeves were soaked as I kept wiping my eyes and nose. I didn't want this life, I didn't choose this life. I want to run away or go back and change everything. If I could of stopped my parents death, I wouldn't be here. We would have a nice little happy family, my mother would secretly teach me about magic and witches, while my father would watch a slayer, I would join in on training sessions and learn about demons. But I would never face them, because that's not who I am. I should not be out talking to vampires, I should not be killing demons I don't know. I should be hearing it all from my parents and uncle Giles and just believing that it's a crazy story that might or might not be true. But unfortunately that's not the life I'm living.