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C̶͎̍h̶̨͋ȧ̸͔p̸̖̆t̶̠̒e̷͍͝ŗ̷̓:̷͐ ̶͓͆6̵͎͖͇̣̙̎͋̕: S̸h̶a̶r̸p̵e̶n̸e̴r̸ ̵ [TW]

[Song: Sharpener by Cavetown]

[currently rewriting!]

!!!TW: SELF HARM!!!

~Time skip a few days later~ 

also this is unfinished I accidentally published it please help me

'I stopped cutting two weeks ago' I think 'but it wouldn't be too bad if I did it again...'  

I grab the sharpener and screwdriver and go into the bathroom. I close the door, unscrew the blade and put everything but the blade on the counter and sit on the edge of the bathtub. I rolled up the legs if my shorts and grasped the blade firmly. I put the corner of the blade on my left thigh.

 I pressed down very hard, and drew it out into my skin. It hurt a bit, but I wanted more. I cut more and more. I switched to my right leg and I got a bit lightheaded, but I didn't want to stop. I got to about 10 cuts before put the blade onto the counter and grabbed my head. I was so dizzy. I eventually fell into the bathtub, but everything went dark before that.

I woke up on the couch with a blanket on my body. Russia, Canada, and America were surrounding me. "What happened?" I asked tiredly. 

Canada's POV

I heard a very loud thud coming from the bathroom. 'That doesn't sound good.'  Their parents were still out and couldn't help.  I ran over to the bathroom to find that the door is unlocked I slowly open it. I find Y/N collapsed in the bathtub with their lower body out. I see a pencil sharpener with the blade missing and the blade next to it. The blade had a bit of blood on it. I went up to Y/N to see that their thighs had been cut. 'Oh no, I think they cut their own thighs..' I thought.

 I called the others over to come help me. "What happened?" Russia asked. I looked over to them. "Y/N's passed out, and their thighs have cuts on them!" I said, panicked. I grabbed the band-aids from the counter and put them of Y/N's fresh cuts after cleaning the blood from them. America went into Y/N's room and grabs their pillow and a couple of blankets. He puts the pillow and blankets on the couch and says "Let's let Y/N rest on the couch." 

Russia picked Y/N up and carried them to the couch. He laid them down gently. America put the blanket on Y/N's body. "Let's stay here and wait for them to wake up." I said. 

~ Time skip ~

Y/N woke up about an hour later, confused for a moment. They sat up. "What happened while I was passed out?" They asked. I explained what happened and they were silent for a while. "Promise you won't tell my parents about the cuts?" They said looking into my eyes. "I won't tell them, America, Russia, you won't tell them, right?" I said. Russia nodded and America said "Yeah". Y/N blinked and then laid back down. After a few minutes, they got up dragging their pillow and blankets across the floor. They went into their room upstairs, but didn't close the door. They came back down after a while. "My parents will be back in a few minutes, so maybe y'all should hide or something. My parents don't like it when I have people over." They said. 

We followed them upstairs and went into their room and just talked. A few minutes later we heard the front door open and close, and a woman saying  "we're home!". 

Russia's POV

I heard Canada calling for America and I to come help him and Y/N. America and I ran over to see Y/N's body collapsed in the bathtub with the lower half of their body out. "What happened?" I asked. Canada looked over to me and said "Y/N's passed out and they cut their thighs!".  My heart sank. My mind started racing. Canada grabbed toilet paper and cleaned the blood from their cuts, then put band-aids on the cuts. 

I saw America run to Y/N's room. He came back with a pillow and two blankets. "Let's let Y/N rest on the couch." He said. I picked Y/N up and carried them to the couch. I set them down carefully. America put the blankets over Y/N's body. 

About an hour later, Y/N woke up. "What happened while I was passed out?" they asked. Canada explained everything that happened. Everyone was silent for a while. "Promise you won't tell my parents about the cuts?" They asked, with a bit of fear in their eyes.  "I won't tell them, America, Russia, you won't tell them, right?" Canada said, looking over to America and I. "Yeah." America said and I nodded. Y/N laid back down and after a few minutes, got up and dragged the pillow and blankets upstairs into their room. "My parents will be back in a few minutes, so maybe y'all should hide or something. My parents don't like it when I have people over." Y/N said. They went upstairs and we followed them. We went into their room. We all talked for a while, and then we heard a door opening and closing form downstairs. A woman's voice said "We're home!". 

Y/N looked at us with fear in their eyes. "Fuck, hide, they can't know you're here! They believe what the news people say about you guys-" They said, panicked. We all hid in their closet. Y/N went downstairs and greeted their mother and father. "You guys were gone for a while, almost all day!" they said. Y/N and their parents talked for a while, and then they went back upstairs into the bathroom, maybe to clean everything up. They came back into their room and set something that sounded like a pencil sharpener down. "Either I need to tell them y'all are here or I'm gonna have to try to hide you." Y/N said. "I don't want to have to do either of those but it's for the best. You can co-"

There was a knock at the door. Y/N opened it and their mom and them were talking for a few minutes until they closed the door again. "You can come out, now." Y/N said. America opened the closet door and crawled out. Canada got up and walked out. I did the same. Y/N sat on the floor and we all made a circle. We all talked for what seemed like forever. 

Y/N's POV

I was talking with Canada, America and Russia, it seemed like forever. We got along very well. I look up at the clock and realize it's almost 1 AM. I check my phone. I realize I still have my countryhumans fanfic tab open so I quickly close it. I put my phone down. "Guys, it's almost 1 AM, maybe we should get to sleep." I say. After a while, everyone is asleep so I decide to read fanfiction just because I could. 

Yeah I see you reading this in the middle of the night, don't think I don't see you. 

Published: 10/15/2021

Word count: 1188