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C̷͓̑h̷̬̽̐ā̵̠̺̯̐p̶̽t̴̡̾ě̶͂́ŗ̷̦̝̓͑ ̷̾1̴̇͛9̷͋̈̆:̶ 9/12/2021 [Laundry Basket]

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[Trigger warning: References of self harm]

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[Y/N?]'s POV

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I heard slow beeping from my left. I opened my eyes slowly to see a hospital room. I looked at my arm and saw scars and a needle taped to it. The needle was in my skin. I didn't see the countries around me. I was confused for a moment until the memories started to make sense. 'It was all.. A dream?'
Tears began to blur my vision as I heard the door opening. I saw a doctor walk in. "Oh, you're awake!" He said happily. He looked at me and saw the tears in my eyes. "Hey, what's wrong?" he asked, softening his voice.
"It was all a dream?" I asked. I didn't recognize my own voice as I spoke. The voice in my thoughts was the voice of my desired self, but not the one I actually had, though they seemed to blend as I spoke.
"What was all a dream?" The doctor asked.
I felt a tear stream down my cheek. "I lived a whole life. The life I've always wanted to live while I was.. Asleep?" I said. "How long has it been?" I asked.
"You've been in a coma for 3 months." The doctor said. "We weren't sure that you would wake. Your family is here to meet you, by the way! Would you like to see them?" He asked.
"Yeah.. Okay.." I replied, wiping the tear away while feeling a painful lump in my throat. I swallowed it.

The doctor walked out of the room after nodding and saying a soft "okay".
After a few seconds, I saw two people walk in, who I assumed to be my mom and dad. They had happy tears in their eyes when they saw I was awake. They hugged me and said some things I can't remember, but I knew that they were happy. But it didn't feel like they cared, like they were faking it.

The doctors let me go home with my family.
We walked into the car. The outside world felt empty. My parents talked about a private school that I apparently went to. I thought about the memories of a middle school kid looking out of a window. They started to make sense. My body felt small. So small. I looked at the scars on my arms. They weren't the same as the scars in my dream. There were more scars then [Y/N] in the dream. They were scattered across my arms and my thighs. I looked out of the window and saw construction going on at the side of the road. My parents played my favorite songs on the radio.

When we got home, I immediately went inside and ran to the bathroom to look into the mirror. I was the middle schooler.. I  was the one in those memories. I went upstairs Into my room. I started to get used to being back. I looked at the calendar on my wall. There was a circle on June 10th, 2022. Every other date was crossed out. '3 months..' I thought.
I looked around for my phone and found it. I turned it on and my lock screen made me tear up. My lock screen was a drawing of Canada, Russia, America.. And me. I blinked back the tears and checked the date. It was September 10th, 2022. I typed in my password and saw my home screen. More countryhumans. It made me tear up at the thought that they weren't real. I thought of the dream, but I couldn't remember where we found Russia. I tried to remember so badly but I just couldn't.

I went through the screenshots I had taken. It was mostly countryhumans.
I looked at the picture I took. Some of them were of my bloody cuts and scars. I sat on my bed and scrolled through the pictures. My memory had been refreshed... Mostly. I couldn't remember some parts of my life, like what my  ex friend's face looked like, or where I went sometimes. I sighed and put my phone down as mom called my name from the kitchen. I sighed and got up. I went into the kitchen to see that dinner was ready. We had spaghetti with tomato sauce. It was mostly silent.
"[Y/N]? What's wrong?" My mom asked.
" I lived a whole life while I was asleep." I replied.
Mom chuckled and said "That's nice."
I had forgotten one thing about my parents. They didn't believe me when I told them anything about my mental health.