Untouchable - maya and carina

chapter 18 - telling people

Mayas POV

I managed to make It through the rest of the night uninterrupted and woke up in the same position I fell asleep in.

I stayed clung to carina, never wanting to let her go until she finally woke up too.

"Morning Bella"

"morning" I whispered

"Are you ok?" she asked

"I just never want to let you go"

"Is it about last night?"

I didn't answer but just nestled my head even further into carina.

"What happened?"

"You left" I stated

"Hm?"

"You died... I saw you dead... I couldn't breathe without you... I couldn't live without you" I said starting to cry again

"Oh Bella, I'm not going anywhere, ok? I'm right here, you've got me" she whispered

After a while, I had got ready for work as carina was off today and head out.

I arrived at the station and the day went pretty smoothly. We had a few calls but mostly just kitchen fires, and people who had gotten themselves stuck somewhere while drunk.

We had just come back from a call and went up to the beanery to eat before the next call. I was sitting down and started to feel as if I could notice a million things I hadn't noticed before. I could see every knife on the table, I knew where the really sharp knives were in the cupboards, I could recall the exact organization of the cabinet of pills, I was aware of everything.

It was all becoming too much, and I know I needed to get out but also that if I was alone, I didn't know what I was capable of

Vic's POV

I and Andy gave each other a glance when we noticed Maya's eyes darting from every spot in the room. She suddenly got up but before going down the stairs she looked over at us with desperate eyes.

Knowing what to do, andy and I both went downstairs with her and sat with her in her office

"Do you need carina?" Andy asked, wanting to do anything to keep her best friend as she is

"Uh... yeah, yeah I do"

When we heard Maya admit that we knew it was something serious as usually we would be forced to call her despite Maya begging us not to.

I went outside the office but left Andy sat with Maya

"Hey carina"

"Vic is everything ok?" she asked, knowing that 9 times out of 10, whenever someone from the station called her, it was because Maya was having an attack of some sort

"Yeah, I don't really know. Maya seems like she's overwhelmed and she asked for you which she never usually does, she always thinks she can handle it herself" I joked

"Ok, is she having an attack or something?" she asked curiously

"Not really. She seems like she's focussed on something else, and she didn't want to be left alone so I think she's having urges or something"

"Ok Vic, I'm on my way"

"Ok, bye carina"

"Bye Vic"

Mayas POV

Sitting in my office felt better but it still wasn't good. There weren't any knives, but there were pills. There were things that I could use if I was desperate, and I was imagining using all of them.