Bullied || Shawn Mendes

Chap. 17

Shawn came to visit me everyday for the past month. Everyday, he brought me different colored flowers. On the table lied, twenty eight different colored flowers. Every now and then, he'd bring balloons and stuffed animals. Today he brought bright summer orange flowers and a large stuffed bunny. i cried every time he arrived. to know someone cared enough to come visit me everyday made me so happy. and to know he loved me. . . well i don't even know how to explain how I feel about that. Shawn made me so happy every time he walked through that door. And what made me even happier today is that Maya came with him today.

"Hey Tegan," Maya said softly, "I miss you. I really, really miss you. You're so easy to talk to, you're a great listener. And a great friend. I need you to get better. If you don't I wouldn't even know what to do anymore. You're an amazing person, Tegan. I am so, so sorry you have yo go through what you're going through. I will do what ever it takes to be there for you. Just get better."

I just wanted to sit up and hug her so tightly and never let go. Everything she said brought me to tears. Just to think I have an actual friend that likes me brings a feeling to me I cannot explain. It feels good, to have at least two people at school I can count on, plus my whole family.

"I can't stay any longer but please, please get better. I'll see you soon," Maya said, after hours of staying with me. She lightly hugged me before walking out the door.

Shawn took a seat in the chair next to me and stared at me for a long while.

"So today," he finally said, "I talked to Lexi about what happened to you. To me, it seemed liked she looked sorry. But it could've all been an act. I know I probably shouldn't have told her but I felt like she needed to. She needed to know that she was the cause of this."

"What did she say?" I asked, eager to know her response. I frowned after realizing he can't hear me. The fact that he can't almost brought me to tears.

"She looked sad, but said she didn't care."

My eyebrows furrowed and I looked at Shawn with confusion. Lexi could be feeling awful, but she could also not give a single care about what happens to me. I seemed to not care anymore, whatever she felt didn't matter to me. The only thing that mattered was getting better. Getting out if this coma was the only thing that mattered to me.

Being with Shawn and Maya and my family was the only thing that mattered.

I couldn't stop thinking about it. Everyday I wondered if I would emerge from this coma and be able to be with them. But everyday it never happens.

I actually realized what I would've done to many lives if I had actually killed myself. How it would've affected something simple like their everyday lifestyle. I can't do that to others. And if I wake up, I will do my best to get better, no matter what it takes, I'll do it for them.

"So I uh. . . I started writing this song for you. I'm not quite done but I uh- I can't wait for me to sing it to you. It's one of a kind, just for you. I'm actually super excited to sing it for you. Really excited. And on that note I need to tell you what happened at school today. Everyone knows that you're in the hospital right now. Well at least our whole lunch hour does. But anyway, we had a moment of silence for you at lunch. A whole minute, just for you, Tegan," he explained. Tears seemed to be forming in his eyes and soon the rolled down his cheek.

A whole minute for me. Even Lexi was quiet? Well I guess she had to be, or people would wonder why she wasn't. The fact of that brought tears to my eyes and I couldn't stop crying for a long time.

Shawn sat holding my hand and rubbing my hand gently, every now and then a tear rolling down his cheek. For a long time we stayed silent until someone knocked at the door and slowly stepped inside. Shawn's eyes widened as the girl walked in and I felt as if my heart was going to fall out of my chest when I realized who it was.

Lexi smiled, taking a seat next to Shawn, and stared at my cold, half dead body.

"Uhh.." her voice trailed off, like she had absolutely no idea what she wanted to say, "so obviously I heard what happened to you."

"What are you doing here?"

Lexi turned to Shawn and frowned. I stood behind Shawn, rubbing my hands together nervously as I waited for what she had to say. The room fell silent, and Lexi looked over at my body with sorrow. To my surprise, taers started to fall down her cheeks, "I'm sorry," she whispered, "You know, I grew up with two parents that were always working. My brother hated me. And it's not the kind of hate where everyone says oh he doesn't really hate you, he's just saying that because he really hated me. I spent most of the time by myself at home because my parents would always be working and I still do. It's really hard to spend so much time by myself. I'd get so angry all the time. So I just took all my anger out on you. It was just a really bad day when I first started. You got in my way and looked so vulnerable. I couldn't help myself I felt like if I kept my anger in for much longer I'd explode. And my friends. . . well they're just jerks. I'll make sure to keep them away from you. I promise. Shawn, you used to be one of those jerks ya know? You just went with everything that I said. I'm glad you changed. I really am."

"I'm really glad you changed too, Lexi. It probably means a lot to Tegan that you came by," Shawn said, his voice deep and raspy.

He was right. And it was good for Lexi to tell me. Maybe if I wake up there could be some sort of friendship between us.

"Hey Shawn," the sound of my fathers voice pulled me out of my thoughts. Behind my dad stood Aaron and my mother with Brandon catching up close behind, "who's this?"

"Oh I'm Lexi. I was just leaving. I'm really sorry to hear about what happened. I really hope she gets better."

Lexi walks out of the room leaving tears on my parents face and a concerning look on Brandon's. Like he knew who she was and what she did.

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