When you got back, Nat and Wanda were in your bedroom looking like they were worried.
"What's wrong?" you checked to make sure you didn't miss any texts or phone calls before throwing your phone on the docking station.
"The meeting was so long, and its about the upcoming mission. They are thinking of pushing it back a bit" Nat admitted.
"Why?" you took a deep drink of water.
"Fury wants the data that we pulled but Tony isn't done with it yet" she responded easily.
"The data has a lot about you in it, Tony and Bruce try not to think about it around me, but it is really bad" Wanda warned you.
"Pretty sure I know all about what they did to me" you nodded. "I didn't know they knew I was alive until this week though, so that was new. I'll ask Tony if I can help him sort it tomorrow. I know the mission is important. Jeanette is not someone you want to go against, and she will likely be there. She's one of their biggest success'.
"We are worried about you" Wanda and Nat shared a look.
"I'm not" you shook your head. "I have no secrets from the team"
"What if Hydra held secrets from you?" Nat asked softly.
"That's okay. I'm fine with it" you shrugged, trying to keep your face neutral.
"Pain really has made you stronger" Nat responded in a whisper.
"It's the only choice I've had" you sat between them. "Really though, stop worrying. I'll be fine. Maybe I'll even go in and start on it tonight while everyone has a rest"
"You need sleep" Wanda shook her head. "What took you so long on your run anyways?"
"I was sparring with Eric" you grinned. "Bravo team is pretty fun. They invited me to join them at their gym sometime"
"I thought they hated you" Nat chuckled.
"I have a likable personality, what can I say" you laughed, being sarcastic.
"You do, you joke about it, but you do" Wanda stood up giving you a quick hug, followed by Nat. Once you were alone you headed to take a quick shower stealing one of Bucky's t-shirts to wear to bed.Guys night ended up with most of them drunk, even Peter who recently turned 21. All of you could hear them from the bedrooms as they were talking loudly and continuing to play poker or play video games. Nat came and knocked on your door after a bit and came in looking tired.
"We should go start getting them to bed" she sighed heavily. You gave a reluctant nod and slipped out of bed to get a pair of running shorts on that disappeared under the shirt. You followed Nat out to the living room and Tony looked up.
"No, no girls here" he slurred quite a bit.
"You guys need to head to bed" Nat crossed her arms. "Its almost one in the morning"
"Oh doll" Bucky looked up from his cards, and you could tell he was drunk. "Look at you" he bit his bottom lip, and his eyes darkened. "Stop looking at her legs Sam" he looked at Sam who was just gaping. "That's my girl"
"Yes, we've heard that several times tonight, she's your girl. No other girl compares" Tony rolled his eyes.
"Several times?" you echoed.
"Guy talk, you guys had your girl talk" Peter called from over by the TV.
"Come on Bruce" Nat walked over to Bruce who was a little unsteady in his chair. She helped him stand up and led him back to his bedroom.
"Is everyone okay to get to their bedroom?" you asked softly.
"Stevie might need help" Clint pointed to the sleeping super soldier on the couch. You went over and tapped him a few times on the shoulder.
"Come on Steve, time for bed" you leaned down pushing against his shoulder. His arm came out and pulled you down on top of him and he was using him like a teddy bear. Clint burst out laughing, while Peter almost fell over in embarrassment. Sam knew that was coming and lost it laughing. "Stevie... wake up" you tried squirming but he nuzzled into you and you stopped moving immediately.
"Don't worry, he'll wake up eventually" Sam chuckled taking another drink of his beer.
"He's cuddlier than I expected" you were thirty shades of red, not knowing how to react to this situation.
"Hey Punk, wake up" Bucky came over pulling you out of Steve's grip. Steve didn't even move, just pouted in his sleep.
"Why not let him sleep here?" you suggested after a moment.
"I'll bring him to his bed" he shrugged, picking up Steve and throwing him over his shoulder. You flinched, worried that Steve would get hurt.
"Come on Tony, time for bed" you walked over and started putting the cards and chips away. "Video games off boys. Time for bed"
"But its guys night" Peter whined.
"You'll thank me tomorrow" you gave a small smile.
"This was not as fun as a girls night, I'm sure" Pietro grinned.
"Then you guys should have played truth or dare" you rolled your eyes with a smirk.
"Is that why there is footage missing?" Tony seemed impressed for a moment.
"Obviously" you giggled a bit, leading him towards his bedroom. You went back and started grabbing each individual and leading them to their room before finding Bucky was the last one just sitting on the couch waiting patiently. "You were sober enough to put Steve to bed" you raised an eyebrow at him.
"I wanted you to take me to bed too" he pouted, and walked to you slowly. You wrapped your arms around him automatically and held him close for a moment. "I'm the luckiest guy" he gave you a sloppy kiss on the cheek.
"And I'm the luckiest dame" you gave him a chaste kiss on the cheek. "Come on James, lets go to bed" you took his hand and started leading him to the bedroom. "Do you want me to sleep with you?" you looked over your shoulder at him. He nodded automatically. "Did you want to sleep in my room or yours?"
"Yours" he followed you into your bedroom and started getting undressed, throwing his clothes everywhere. You bit your bottom lip trying not to giggle and picking them up to put them in the laundry hamper. You remembered you still had to retrieve your clothes from Nats room soon too. It was hazy what kind of state you all had left the room in. You saw him slip into the bed in just his boxers and gave another giggle.
"I'll be right back" you announced and went to the kitchen to grab a bottle of water and some asprin before going back to give it to him. He took it willingly then started pulling on your arm to pull you in bed beside him. "I'm still in my shorts" you tried to argue but he just slipped his hand to your shorts and pull them off of you while pulling you onto your side of the bed. You couldn't even be mad.
"You're wearing too much" he snuggled into you more.
"When you're not drunk, I'll wear less" you promised laying on your back and pulling him to lay on your chest. It was different being the one that was cuddled instead of being the cuddler for a change. You rubbed his back and waited for him to start sleeping more.Once you were certain Bucky was asleep, you tried to sneak out of bed but he kept you pinned.
"James, baby, I need to pee" you whispered to him. He groaned in his sleep and let you get up. You snuck over to your shorts and slipped them on heading to the door. You gave him one last look before walking out.
You snuck into the computer lab that Tony normally uses, and started working your way into the system. You noticed there were far more firewalls than he usually used, even for Friday. Your frowned as you continued making your way in. Once on his desktop you pulled the three drives out and started filtering through them. You noticed two had been completely changed over, but the last one was still a work in progress.
You glazed over the data, and started putting them in each individual folder noticing that your folder had encryptions on it. Curiosity got the better of you, and you opened it. You knew Tony said he would explain later, but you didn't want to make him tell you something that caused him pain. As you sorted into each of the five files that they had separated the data into, you took a moment to read your own file. Your heart went cold when you saw a cheque made out to your parents. You read through the file again. They worked for Hydra, and you had been experimented to start on in the womb. You were given ten years to have a normal childhood before being sold to Hydra for them to finish their experiments. It turned out, your healing abilities and IQ were due to the experiments in the womb, which had happened to the others as well. Your life only cost your parents half a million dollars to give up. Damiens fought and he was sold for a million. You looked at Jeanette and she was sold for three quarters of a million. You were the cheapest experiment they had. You tried not to cry, realizing that you never really had meant anything to them. All those childhood dreams were a lie. You forced yourself to continue sorting, and continue reading. You felt like your heart was broken and shattered in several pieces, that entire time you had thought you were protecting your family by not going back. You just were protecting yourself since they would have just sent you back. Hell, maybe they would have gotten promoted.
The sun was starting to peek through the windows when you finished sorting the files for Tony and Bruce. You didn't want to review any more of the material that was on you, you had enough for today. You made your way outside and just started running. You didn't bother going to get your phone or the dogs. You just needed to run and straighten out your mind before you faced anyone. Now that you had the truth, you needed to come to terms with it. You turned off your inhibitors and felt your frost powers take over while you ran.

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The failed experiment (Bucky x reader)
FanfictionY/N was abducted as a young girl to be forced under Hydra's experiments. Years later you escape, but not after being permanently traumatized to the point you can barely stand human touch. Spending years alone was how Y/N preferred life now, in a...