Selene
Xander was in some deep thought. I had already asked him and he did say it was not my fault yet I couldn't help but feel remorse thinking if I did something unknowingly--you never really knew how people perceived your actions, did you? And I didn't like the thought of people feeling down because of me.
I despised the thought of my words or actions hurting anyone. I knew it wasn't up to me because people's reactions to my actions and words were their own and not my responsibility, nevertheless, I wanted to avoid it as much as possible.
"I told you, you haven't done anything," Xander said and this time I jumped, feeling the harshness in his voice. I had never heard him talk that way. All those times where I had expected him to be a monster and see a glimpse of beast some thought he had, it was never there but now that I had seen him as someone like an Angel, he showed me shadows of an unseen monster in his eyes.
Yes, I saw it.
Those eyes, only some time ago, looked as if they were the most beautiful ocean eyes but right now as he gazed at me with a fathomable darker shade, they looked like violent clouds that took away the light by clouding it.
Why?
What happened to him?
A worry settled in my stomach but I, a coward who didn't like losing, didn't have it in her to get deeper into the darkness and chase away his troubles.
Wish I could...
But the panic that was rising in me slowly only knew it was impossible.
Why?
Two things were there.
One; I'd find what troubled him and I wouldn't be able to take them away.
Second; I'd find the kind of secrets that would make me want to run away from him. I enjoyed being with him.
The second one felt deeper in my heart because I didn't want to be away from the protectiveness he radiated.
Selene was a girl who felt everything too easily. She couldn't decipher her feelings and by the time she did, often, it would be too late.
Too late.
No.
I left his forearm, knowing I needed my space. I finally got a reason to be scared of him. I didn't want everyone to be good to me-it was unrealistic to expect that, yet a heavyweight was placed in my heart due to his tone and the look he gave me.
I looked back at Jasmine and Alex who had fallen asleep.
When I turned to Xander, he looked even scarier with his hard look, not a hint of tenderness anywhere there. I searched for it but it never appeared and neither did my heightened emotions disappeared.
I moved away, watching him grit his jaw.
What had gone wrong at this moment?
"I'm sorry," I said and stood up, throwing the cover that Nate had given me before leaving.
I loved too easily. I fell too easily. I reacted too easily. And I knew this was on me, not on others.
Breathe, Selene. Breathe. It's okay. I repeated over and over again so I wouldn't react right away but... habits took time to die.
I shook Jasmine's body, knowing I couldn't just leave her here without a word with two people I didn't entirely trust. I swallowed the lump in my throat because I already had. Why did I trust him without knowing?
"Jasmine," I whispered, shaking her body, making sure my hair covered my face. "Jasmine," I called her again. Her response was a sleepy moan.
Alex woke up, rubbed his eyes, and looked around with confusion.
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A Love Like No Other
RomanceSelene was Xander's Angel. The Enigma he adored. The mystery he wanted to get lost in and know about with every beat of his heart. And he did so. --- She lived in fairy tales with happily ever afters, secretly wishing for a love like no other so sh...