Bondita : Baffeled with Life (Complete ☑️)

Chapter 19

Bondita immidately ran to his study but he was busy with some client. Anirudh realised his presence.

Anirudh : ander ayo bondita.

Bondita went to him. The man left. Anirudh about to speak but bondita interrupted.

Bondita : isss phele ki aap kuch bole  main maafi mangan chahti hu apse har ush dukh ke liye jo apko meri wajah se sehni padih. mujhe maaf kardijiye.

Bondita sat on her knees while crying and about to touched his feet. But Anirudh moved.

Anirudh : yeh kiya kar rahi ho tum?

Bondita : apne bhagwan ke pair chu rahi hu. maafi mang rahi hu haar ush galti ke liye jo maine ki hain.

Anirudh made her got up.

Anirudh : tumhe mere pair chune ki zarurat nehi bondita. tum mujhse kaam nehi ho humdono ek saman hain.

Bondita : kiyu ki meri tulna apse kar rahe hain? main kabhi apki jaisi nehi baan sakti. aap jitna mahan nehi baan sakti

Anirudh : kiya hua hain achanak se?

Bondita : mujhe pata chal gaya birristarababu humari vivah ka sach.  mujhe maaf kardijiye meri wajah se apko  soudamini didi ko itni parshani huyi.

Anirudh stood numb with moist eyes.
Bondita continued.

Bondita : maine apko bohat galat samjha bohat bhala bura kaha. apke sath itna ganda bartav kiya. apoko itna asamman kiya fir bhi aap mere liye kadhe rahe mujhe padhaya. mujhe nayi zindegi di. ekabar nehi kayi baar. main apka ehsaan  tale dabi huyi hu. mujhe ek mouka dijiye apna karz chukane ka.

Bondita cried and again leaned down to touch his feet but anirudh held her.

Anirudh : dekho bondita humara rista alag hain humara rista jis bhi halat mein judah woh alag hain. par jaise jaise samay bit ta gaya tumhare sath shirf lagav hi badah. guru shirshiyawala lagav dosti wala lagav ya fir usse bhi kayi ziyada jo mein sabdo mein baya nehi kar sakta. bondita...tum jaanti nehi tum mere liye kiya ho sayad main kabhi jaata bhi na payu par main shirf tumhari khushi chahta hu. tumhara bhala chahta hu.

Bondita : haan birristarababu main jaanti hu. aap kabhi mera bura nehi sochenge. ishliye mein sabkuch bhulake nayi shuruwat karna chahti hu.

Anirudh : haan bondita main bhi chahta hu hum nayi shuruwat kare. humare bich abhitak jo kuch bhi huya usse bhul jaate hain. ek nayi shuruwat karte hain. Bondita main tumhe azad karna chahta hu haar bandhan se, samajh ke riwazo se, baal vivah ke bediyo se taki tum asman mein khule panchi ki tarha udh sako.

Bondita : main samjhi nehi.

Anirudh : meri baatein dhiyaan se sunnah or samajhne ki koisis karnah jo kuch bhi bartav tum karti ho woh tumahre umar ke liye sahi nehi. mana tum aisi ek mahol mein badi huyi ho kaid panchi ki tarha. or tum ush pinjre se bahar to agayi par samajh ne tumhe ek or pinjere mein kaid kardiya. humare riste ki pinjere mein. par main yaha se bhi tumhe mukt karna chahta hu. ye hain humare talaq ke kagaz agar humdono sign karde to humari shadi toot jayegi. humesa ke liye azad hojayogi humare riste se.

Bondita got numb. Her broken heart which just fixed few moments ago again broke into pieces. But she smiled. Anirudh continued.

Anirudh : agar hum alag hojayenge
tumhe koi nehi rokh paya asman chune se. tumse koi nehi chin payega tumhara sapna. tum khule asman mein udh payogi. bondita tum yeh patni ghar ki bahu ya bacche ke maa banne ke liye nehi bani ho. tumhari zindegi yehi tak simit nehi hain. tum isse bhi age badh sakti ho or tum badhogi. abhi jo tumhari umar hain tumhara bas ek hi laksiya hona chahiye. janti hona ka kiya hain? janti ho na?