FALLING FOR THE SURROGATE

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Falling For The Surrogate
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Alexandra Sullivan

I watched Hugh subtly as I are hoping he hated me now I know what you all are thinking and I'll admit it I'm a bad person but I do love Hugh like really love him but after my major fuck up that day of my birthday.

I knew I was a bad person and that I didn't deserve Hugh I mean I have lied to him and hurt him in so many ways.

He was actually right though I actually have a lot of sins to confess too "We need a divorce" I said surprising myself and he apparently as he turned to stare at me I made sure to rid my face of all expression I wanted to appear stoic and that mean no show of emotions even though I actually felt like bawling my heart out.

"What? He asked confused staring me in the eye

"You heard me Hugh..... I tell him averting my eyes

"You still haven't listed my sins" I said waiting patiently "but let me start by confession something first I slept with Klein that day you had a surprise birthday party for me and let me admit I felt shitty for my behavior I mean you were busy throwing a surprise party in my honor and I was busy screwing my manager" I finished slowly waiting for him to react

"That day I came home drunk and we had that argument I'm sorry I called you all those things I had no right to I mean I was being a hypocrite and I actually mean it I didn't sleep with my ex if that's what you're wondering Melvin and I are exes for a reason he's existed my life I mean he practically ruined me so why would I want to get back with him" I said all these time unaware I'd started crying

"And I know saying all these now is probably lame of me but I really did love you Hugh I've loved you since that first day my mom bumped into your dad at the store and I smudged my ice cream on you in  school that's why I did all I did don't ever doubt that" I told him

I still love you I do love you

I wanted to add

But I knew it'd be pointless

"And I probably should just add this to the list although I have a feeling you already know this but Tommy's not mine and you may call me selfish for all my plotting and planning but I actually did all those things for the both of us.

I'll admit I suggested surrogacy at first so I'd have enough time to focus on my career I also did that so you could have a child to devote to at least until I was ready even though that would never happen.

I actually didn't know I wouldn't be able to birth a child and when I found out I was hurt because I knew then it was over I couldn't give you all those things you dreamed of"I finished softly by this time I was full blown sobbing I felt warm arms wrap themself around me.

Hugh Sterling

I listened to Alexandra with high cincerntration my heart breaking as she continued crying

"I am a bad person I know this Hugh because I didn't want to hurt you but it seems I did at the end"

She says as I wrapped my arms protectively against her comforting her "you should have told me when you found out you didn't let me choose heck you didn't even give a chance to"I told her softly

"I see the way you look at her Hugh and that's how  I knew I made the choice you'd be happier with her you know at least some good came out of this in the end you have a child now and you can continue to with the mother of your child beside you"

"You questioned me constantly why I wasn't paying attention to Tommy I'm supposed to be bonding with him but I couldn't Hugh every time I stare at him I see you and then Normani comes in and I say to myself his mother is here I can't get attached to somebody else's child" more tears streamed down

"I'm sorry Alexandra I've been a bad person too I'm here calling you out for cheating on me when I've been doing the same..."I told her guilt eating up at me "I kissed her long before you cheated on me you know" I told her as I turned to look at her but she didn't seem surprised "you saw it didn't you" I asked

Not really needing a response even though she replied "I saw you guys that day in the library"

That was all she needed to say before I hugged her

"I'm sorry wifey I really am but you really should have told me about the situation I mean we had so many options to choose from we could have adopted or probably artificial insemination" I told her watching as she smiled softly at me

"You see why I loved you Hugh.. I didn't miss the way she winced at the past tense she really was hurting "you always see the good in me"

I left that hotel room that day heavier than I'd arrived Alexandra was an Angel I really truly hoped that idiot Klein doesn't hurt her if not I'd hurt him myself.

So many things ran through my mind as I drove home Alexandra had made me promise to wait before I tell everyone else including Normani

I wondered how she was going to react to the news
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